Consciousness and the spaces we live in

 

Consciousness and the spaces we live in

Being an INFJ, a writer and an artist — my ambience has always mattered a lot to me. The landscape around, the color palette of both the city and house, the aesthetics, the energy; if it is crowded or not and so on.

I was an art collector and also loved holding on to objects holding memories, yet as I am spiritually evolving, it is minimalism that appeals more to me.

However, it is not just about me. Being a traveler for almost 13 years, living in numerous guest houses, homes; having experienced all kinds of life styles; often chasing the next inspiration to create, paint, think or write; the impact of environment upon a soul — simply fascinates me.

One can argue that an idea can come anywhere and if someone is really willing to execute it; even that can be brought to life anywhere. to a certain extent, I agree. Yet not fully. Ask an empath who is a writer — living amidst noisy and lousy people. Regardless of good ideas, thoughts, even the will to write; the work can’t really happen with someone or other repeatedly hampering his/her chain of thoughts.

Spirituality can say that it is all internal. All creations, all manifestations. That external factors can only impact us if we let them. As such there is nothing external. That external reality too is a mirror of our inner reality — the conflicts, the realizations, the truth we need to hear, the strength we must attain, the growth that must happen and so on.

To a certain extent, it is true. And so, the same phenomenon can also probably be used to bring a shift to our internal reality. Don’t you think so?

Like people go for vacations to heal themselves. Changes of scenery does them good. Artists visit landscapes to get inspired. Writers go hang out amidst all sorts of communities just to get inspiration or understand humanity or connections.

Ask an abused wife, if leaving a traumatic relationship and home gives her release or not from her pain. Yet, also ask her how long did it take for her to actually step out of it mentally.

For, not always that an external change can change us entirely. Any person suffering with PTSD would swear on that. For though the trauma is no more playing out there in reality, the external conditions may have become normal rather healthy; yet the trauma still plays again and again in the mind or the nervous system still clutches on to it tightly. The sub conscious or unconscious still lives in the same trauma despite of timeline shift or literal shift geographically.

But we are talking about conscious selves. The choices we make. The things we consciously observe or feel through our senses. And how we get impacted by it and even impact it.

For even if I feel like water — so fluid my entity has been with years of travels; yet the way I change at different places and amidst various people — it totally fascinates me.

Being from a narcissistic family; I be the least me at my own home. And being a traveler majorly, I be the freest when in any other city but my own. I behave entirely different when with friends. Even there, there are levels to it. With old, close friends, I be more vulnerable. With creative souls, I rather feel proud and happy to share my creations with. yet most often, that the society seems artificial, superficial and totally absurd to me and I become a severe introvert then.

I have even had people-pleasing tendencies in my past. When I really-really wanted to belong. All that had to be healed. For no outsiders can really decide my credibility or value. It was both because of my conditioning and the environment that expected me to follow blindly. Or maybe my circumstances or phases where I had to follow and drown deep, to connect to the volume of the sea and hence not just learn how to swim but also to reach the other end and finally be free of it.

But that’s just me.

Doesn’t your behavior or sense of self also shift with various roles or places? a principal may head a school or a college, but when she/he gets home, she/he has to become a mother or a father and not expect everyone even in family to still give her/him the same obedience or authority. In office one would be formal but amidst friends he/she can be informal and in the privacy of his own space he/she can really be himself/herself.

Now, that we have understood that we do perform various roles and have multiple personalities and are impacted by our environment, people, places — we can now shift to discussing the same in detail.

Growing up, I have always been about decorating my room. Not just in my own home that involved hand painting walls at times, hanging paintings everywhere, wrapping door handles with laces to make them cushiony, making walls vibrant with handmade sheets, writing inspirational quotes upon my almirah doors or walls, having planters to increase life energy, having as less clutter around as possible, even covering the glass paned almirah containing thousands of old books with glass paintings -to have a sense of harmony and less clutter. Basically, I have been all about aesthetics. And not just visual, also sensational.

Say the softness upon door handles. Or soft cushiony toys all over my bed to have that cushiony feel whenever I fall down upon it. Or pink and gold curtains to filter out sunlight in a vibrant hue. Or off-white lights in my room. I hate bright white light. And I hate that DDA kind of yellow color upon wall. My room always seemed like an extension of my mind. With art, writings, musical instruments around.

Not just at home, even when I go to stay at offbeat places, in random guest house for few months or even days. I always ensure to customize and decorate it my way. Can be brush-stands or soap-dishes made out of plastic bottles, or paper paintings temporarily taped upon walls, or handmade sheets covering those windows that may tamper my privacy and so on. Creative ways to feel as if I belong. Creative ways to get inspired to create more.

I have also observed the exact opposites. Like I had a friend and his room was sheer white. No piece of alliteration, no painting, no art or writing. Even his wardrobes and showpieces were all a part of wall. The bed was white. The sheets were white. I totally got awed by it. Even that was a refreshing change. I love white. But I know, had I been in that room for long, and had it belonged to me, I would have still alliterated it with something. That’s me.

Buddhists though mind tiny empty ancient caves as best to meditate. The less cluttered our surrounding, the best. the mess the noise around, the more our attention gets focused. I agree.

Back in Bangalore, when I had a house of my own, I had just begun my corporate life. My bed was on floor with few mattresses. There was no furniture. And I totally loved that. It was super easy to clean and mop the floor. The sleep at night was sure a delight. And there was simply so much space even if it was just a studio apartment. Yet my walls were hand painted, I had an aquarium towards one corner, there were pretty curtains upon two large windows that used to bring in sunlight each day and create rainbowed prisms at morning and evening hours. I just loved living there.

Sunlight, air, view, state of mind, space to think, space to be — there are so many factors that actually fill soul to a place.

And décor; vibes; sense of freedom; inspiration; weather; facilities around; food for mind, body, soul; company; aesthetic, colors; seasons — there are numerous factors that make us actually feel home. Regardless where you blood relations live. Despite of where your job.

And of course, the most significant factor to all these things is Love! May it be loving people around that can make all remaining things be less significant; or loving a certain job for which you won’t mind compromising upon few things; or even loving a certain lifestyle that can make you give up on some of these things.

For example, hygiene is super significant to me, yet while travelling; it is next to impossible to get clean curtains or clean window sills. Maximum you can expect is a clean sheet and maybe washed washroom. Yet, one never knows, if the towels provided are clean or just dried. And those blankets for sure are never ever clean. Still, travel or landscapes or this sense of myself that I be while on road — gains much more importance — for which I have to let go the dirty rugs or curtains.

At home there are all kinds of comforts, but there are stress and suppression and this feeling of surveillance round the clock. That’s how narcissists make you feel. They simply hamper all sense of creativity. I therefore stay up late at night, just to have quiet hours; I spend most of my awake hours on terrace -just to have my space and even there that my family doesn’t mind to come at times- just to meddle with my personal space.

So, for me, anywhere else is good then staying here at home. It rather becomes a golden cage for me. And not in a good way.

It is now that I am realizing why I didn’t mind such adverse conditions all these years of travelling. Of course, I had this passion to travel and see the world. But above that, I was also trying to find myself away from the pressure and hold of narcissists at home.

Maybe that’s why aesthetics is that valuable to me. They make me feel home wherever that I. I have realized that the only home I really have is deep in my soul. Yet when I do travel, I extend that home to my room with slight touches of fairy lights or paintings or certain temporary add-ons. All that gives me a sense of belonging not just to that place but to that home within. In a way the inner reality gets reflected outside through such gestures. As if my mind manifests externally, assuring me of a safe and creative place. A dream home.

Now that I have vented and spoken about aesthetics, we can move to even landscapes for that matter. A friend I was talking with recently shared his travelling experience. He said that he always considered himself a mountain person, yet last year when he visited Goa, he could discover a beach lover in him. I told him that mountains provide us strength and beaches provide us expansion for creativity or even out entity. He got overjoyed with these words.

Won’t you agree with this? Mountains with their ever stable, solid presence — don’t really change much. Yet their presence helps us look within and connect to that inner strength to stand firm for ourselves. Maybe that’s why sages from all timelines have always preferred to go and meditate in solitude upon higher mountains. Likewise with altitude as well. the lesser the oxygen, the lesser thoughts.

Sea on the other hand cleanses our very chakras — physically, energetically, psychologically — at all levels. As such, sitting beside any water body is therapeutic anyway. Rivers teach us to go on. Lakes provides us reflective moments. Seas provide us with free power, with memory of universal D.N.A., with a feeling of freedom same like water — that is deep, powerful yet so soft and flowy. One feels expanded simply looking at the horizon of sea and sky.

Deserts too have their own power like that. They teach you endurance. They inspire you to be vibrant and colorful — for the backdrop becomes so dull that you automatically shine bright. The stars become brighter there. The voice gains a texture.

Snow provides purity. Everything feels magical in snow. Experiencing live snow fall is simply another level experience. The entire world turns from many colors to a single color — pure white. It feels so divine and magical.

And have you ever experienced a thunderstorm? Well, I love rain. Regardless of the season. I love water as an element to be honest. Rains are my favorite time. and if you add on lightening or thunder to it. Aah! It just feels so so empowering to me.

I specially remember this one moment during my first ever solo journey. I was returning in a super-fast train from Bangalore to Delhi. On the way I was standing upon the door — to better feel the whooshing wind due to superfast speeding train, the heavy rain that I was lucky to experience and then a giant lightening strike in the sky along with a bolt of thunder. I can’t tell you how empowered I actually felt in the moment. As if divine itself was filling me up with some magical energy.

Later though I had a break up from my only boyfriend ever. He was toxic, and that lightening was possibly showing me an upcoming tower moment to me; I just realized. Yet, the feeling of that moment was simply incredible.

And even till this day, I absolutely love both rain and lightning. Rather, at times I specially go to Himachal or Uttarakhand — just to spend entire monsoon season — struck in mountains — watching the rains washing those pines and clouds filling my room — making it all a hazy fairy world.

I love clouds too. My paintings too then gain numerous snowy hazy clouds. And the birds become clearer with the world hidden behind clouds and only birds appearing upon porticos or immediate trees. Another ethereal world that talks to me directly. I attain my favorite state — where nobody can see me, and I see just the beauty — that divine chooses for me selectively.

Yet another perspective to look at our plain of living can also be ‘Time’. It is said that those unhappy in present, tend to live in past. They glorify the past, say phrases like ‘those were the days’, alliterate their mind with mementos of memories and just escape into earlier timelines. And those not content in present either remain anxious and fearful of future or keep on creating fantasies of future. They have delusional believes about themselves and their destiny. That may work as positive affirmation but may even lead to further disappointment.

Regardless, the fact that people can escape their present timeline just with their thoughts and can even choose to live in their cherished memories or world of fantasies is a crazy phenomenon and a super powerful tool both for mental relief and for escaping a problematic reality.

A coma patient may wake up after years and still believe himself or herself to be in some time 20 years ago. A refugee may return to his country after years and would rather think about the way he had loved his beloved country then accept the modern changes in it. A poor person has to hope for better, more abundant days; else he won’t be able to survive through the difficult everyday struggle of life!

The mind or consciousness therefore plays with itself. I had a cousin grandfather who though had migrated from Pakistan to India back in his childhood. Yet, in his extreme old age, all he remembered was his childhood spent back in his native village in Pakistan — from where he was forced to shift at the time of migration. When he was finally done with all his duties, and was nearing the closure of life; his conscious self-gave in to sub conscious that had stored all his childhood memories safely somewhere. To our disbelief, he remembered all the lanes from his village way clearly but hardly anything from India where he spent majority of his life. He found home in his past, where he must have actually felt the safest as a child — much before life took a toll upon his family and everything changed in their lives.

Many lunatics on the other hand believe themselves to be kings or presidents or some authoritative figure maybe because they of feeling helpless in their actual life or maybe secretly all humans desire to reign or seek power or I don’t know.

We can take another example of teenagers who have such high ambitions of changing the world and becoming so and so back in their teenage. However, life soon teaches new lessons and hardly anything happens as planned. I am not saying that always goes bad or something. Maybe it turns out way better than expected. But the innocence of teenage or childhood where everything seems attainable and reality has still not hit yet; it becomes almost a dream like state where a person has energy and curiosity of youth and determination, hopes, fantasies of future without fears that enter our system due to experiences.

Another realm of living in can be fantasy — whether created by self or imposed by others.

All religions run partially on fantasy and faith. I am not denying the presence of God. I too believe in divinity and have solid faith in it. Yet, almost all preachers and religious or spiritual organizations do indeed create numerous good or bad fantasies to rule the general mob using fear or reward. And people do love to believe the commercial and institutionalised versions of faith as not everyone is rational or wise enough to discriminate or set upon the path of Sun to figure out life for oneself. They prefer to consume spoon-fed beliefs may it be politics or religion. Power or faith. They just are told that hell and heaven are two extremes and one punishes, another is reward. That they must always obey, else they are rebels and therefore wrong. I have seen entire families voting for the same party even through generations — just because it runs in the family.

Most of the society simply goes with herd mentality and hardly questions — why they must get married, accept a political leader, follow the social ladder, continue contributing to consumerism or capitalism, believe in certain gods, do no not do certain things… government, media, religions, spiritual organizations, capitalists, communities, very families — they all brainwash each individual and society as a whole — more or less remains herded, controlled in lives they never actually asked for.

Why I am talking about it, is because that’s a space — mental, emotional, psychological, social, even literal where we live in without even being aware of it being our choice or not.

Had it been a dream or a fantasy of someone, it would have been mystical and rather fancy. There is nothing wrong with an adolescent kid mock playing and imagining being in a barbie or superhero’s world. There is nothing wrong with a student imagining a better future and working in some other country or at a high paying job. There is nothing wrong with having ambitions or wishing for things or experiences.

What is wrong however is the difference between whether a fantasy is your or imposed upon you.

I am a free soul. I had not been much ambitious financially for many years of my life. I preferred to travel, to live experiences, be in nature, create as much as I could… however recently, I am realizing that not only it is high time I must have my independent and self-owned home but also earn real good so as to provide myself a safe space unaffected from my narcissistic family, unadulterated from consumerist society… plus, the places that I loved to travel to, even the offbeat villages have all now become totally capitalistic and full of vices. Earlier I used to feel home on mountains or beaches. Now all anybody wants is money. And the values of even those simple folks are by far gone.

Maybe they were the same even earlier. And rather I was naïve and innocent. But ever since 2019, I am feeling as if either I am living in some simulation or the world has actually changed. Maybe my perceptions have shifted. Or maybe I become more judgmental. Maybe, the world indeed has changed and has become so massively capitalistic. Maybe, post lockdown, the WFH people who had no knowledge about real travel or respect for those places; but simply had city vices and obscene amount of money — maybe they corroded it. Maybe the greed of those villagers impacted it.

Maybe, money is indeed a reality of today’s time. and I must earn and earn really well to meet those requirements. Not like, I am not capable. I actually have worked at various high paying jobs. I just can’t handle the office politics which I now understand is because of I being a scapegoat at home. Also, being an artist, an empath, a writer, a traveller — anything that demands all my time and energy without giving me back what I really expect and deserve seems like a wastage of my precious energy. I seek creative outlet, learning experience, acceptance for who I am, genuine people, high paying, not running by the clock, focused more upon quality of work than the time I am reaching or leaving, prefers result rather than pretention of doing work, etc… Instead, I find typical 9–5 job options with people believing themselves to be ‘know-all’s and such.

Thing is, I had always remained entirely focused upon creating. To keep on writing experiences as I travelled. To keep on documenting. I hardly had time to stay and convert them into marketable products. I did try, but never had patience to buy or show them my work’s value. There are numerous books, paintings, and other creations still in my stalk. Not like I am gatekeeping everything. I did publish many books. I did share my art. Just haven’t really got that big break you can say.

I have also realized recently, that I have always been sub-consciously afraid of actually earning a lot or having lot of fame. All my life I pursued freedom. I didn’t know earlier, from what. Now I understand it. I have actually sat upon life’s hot seat so many times — amidst my own blood relations, so called friends, society… that now I don’t think, I need to be afraid of it anymore. My own people left no stone unturned to insult, degrade, suppress, traumatize me — however they could.

I reached rock bottom and noticed my friends vanishing from my life, my family making me a problem case, society further laughing about it or again hardly understanding it. Not like I didn’t get support. Divine sends help through strangers when you are pure.

Yet, I was still afraid of getting into my power or fame as each time I took a bold step, tried taking a stand for myself, experimented with something new, tried leaving the trauma bonds or stepped out of the matrix — somehow I was punished for it. My efforts were never rewarded. My mistakes or attempts of stating my entity were sung everywhere. I was made to be the problem case when it was, they themselves who were insecure and unhappy with their own selves.

There was never a competition in my head. Yet they all stayed weirdly competitive.

Now though, I am on the verge of taking another leap. I am on a crossway. I can either continue my old survival mechanism as I actually loved to travel. Though it hardly satisfies me anymore. I have been there, done that. I don’t like people anymore. And they are happy with the corrupt, soulless version of their villages. The hippies scene seems lost. The pore emotions feel devalued. Maybe I can try travelling to other countries now. Who knows I may find my joy back.

Yet another way, is to take a giant leap and switch the very paradigm of more than a decade of my life. To again join some corporate job and earn amazingly well like before. It does excite me in terms of work, creativity, finally some educated intellectual company. Yet I wonder do I wish to be in the same rat race? I can if I run a marathon. Without being in any competition. Simply participating and taking what I wish to take and giving what I can best give. The choice though is rarely met or given.

Yet third option is divine intervention. When the destiny simply decides to finally pay for my efforts. When my books get decent publishers or who knows even film makers. When I be able to open my own café to actually create the vibe I seek outside. To have the same purity and creativity at a place that I used to travel for. Maybe my art pieces finally sell off at a great price by some art collector who actually admires the vibrance and life element in them. Maybe, people finally realise that I actually fuse 5D level consciousness with intuition, psychology, experience and finally channelise a guidance for them that really can shift their entire life’s trajectory. Maybe my original songs actually become a set of healing albums for the world to get healed from. May be the saved books become worldwide success — and people do utilize the wisdom or the emotions that must be realized or felt.

Now enters the dilemma however. One, these all seem delusional fantasies as yet, as right now I am still considering the best option without actually taking a decision or action.

And majorly, I really am not sure if it my own decision to change my life or if it is brainwashing of my family or society or community or the simulated frequency I am living on. Why have I become such a consumer. I never liked wasting my time with screen time. I never used to watch TV as well. my diet used to be one meal a day.

On the contrary I have become such an active consumer of everything. May it be food, or media or life.

My very being is all about creativity. Creativity comes from emptiness with a sudden spark of an idea. Or else, it spills out when you have an over abundance of it. Either, I need to be as empty as before to channelize Akashik records into 3D world. Or else, I need to become so fucking abundant that it becomes my very state. That way I can actually give my creations way better platforms. My voice can be of value. What I say can actually mean something for someone. I have lived as a mystic for years. I can become an abundant voice for my creations to have a better life!

All I need to be sure of now is to know what is it actually that I deep in my soul desire.

And so, for now, I guess the space I am living in is delirium. That is yet another state where people live in unconsciously. Othello’s famous line ‘To be or not to be’ denotes exactly that.

Many though are merely confused between two jobs, or pieces of clothes or lovers or lives or who know. Not every one is conscious of it as well. I guess, I am just conscious of the delirium yet trying to access my sub conscious to actually help my conscious self — make the right decision.

Therefore, my room too is same like my mental state. There is one bag packed kept in a corner — ready to leave at a single whim. That’s my one foot out. While my fairy lights and everyday clothes are kept out to keep my present alive. A packed induction kept on another corner is reminding me of taking a stable decision this time. The lack of interest in de-cluttering my space each day is an exhaustion from overthinking so much.

Like I said, our spaces are a direct extension of our minds. Our external reality is a mirror image of inner reality. Therefore, not only it is essential to keep our thoughts, emotions sorted, processed and alliterated — as they directly impact our spaces, connections, relationships… but also other way round. We have to consciously choose the people, places, colors, walls, spaces that we live in.

Look around, is your space a reflection of who you are as a person?

Cosmic force

 

They don't understand that 

I am the magic! 

Cosmos flows through me. 

So does the divine energy. 

And I won't let the magic out

Where I am under-appreciated. 

And I am not asking for much. 

Just celebration for who I am. 

To be valued and loved

With genuine emotions. 

I am done with over giving phase. 

Done with people taking me for granted. 

I am a cosmic force. 

And I would behave so henceforth! 

Red star

 All my life I kept wandering 

In quest of the unknown 

Until I was made to stand still 

Almost to a fault of my own.

And though there were numerous temptations

Numerous ways opened up too.

But all I wanted was to sit still

Maybe kill my own self,

Maybe it was but hermit mode. 

The more I processed, the more tragic it became. 

Same like cleaning an abandoned closed hole. 

Filth oozed out. Old wounds pained. 

I yelled inside. I felt rage. 

I went silent.

Almost like a dead body floating upon a massive ocean. 

An ocean of my life.

Waves of all timelines. 

I looked at my past,

Wondering, can I reclaim that! 

I wondered at the journey I had had. 

I kept on digging more and more. 

Until I reached back to ground zero. 

Like a spiral narrowing down. 

Like a cosmic funnel absorbing all. 

As if I was a star succumbed to a dark hole. 

Getting recycled with extreme pressure and force. 

And then I suddenly realised 

What I was running from all along. 

The root cause was my own home. 

The process revealed a series of experiences-

Begining with blood relations

To even in society. 

And regardless of how many people or places

All I had been doing was traveling in spirals. 

Though there were many epic experiences. 

Yet they all circled back to similar instances. 

They all showed me a mirror. 

To become courageous.  

To stand firm for myself. 

I learned, that the  problem was never in me

 but my very roots were poisoned. 

That I couldn't take root anywhere else

As I kept one nerve connected to the basics. 

That even for a dandelion, it is crucial to fly far off

And then stay rooted where it finally finds apt resources around. 

Trouble was, I wasn't rational or aware enough. 

I was talented yet wasn't strong enough. 

Regardless what was, could or should have. 

Here I stand. Back to ground zero. 

I am still in my cocoon 

About to step out. 

The gooey past is still sticking around. 

I am about to be reborn. 

As a red star. 

A butterfly. 

A new ground with ample supply. 

I now know my past and am trying to be at peace with it. 

I am now ready for the future and when it comes,

I will embrace it. 

At present, I am no more running from anything. 

I am here. In my now. 

Allowing the divine to bring me my timeline! 

I have suffered enough. I have given enough. 

And enough is enough. 

Not demanding, but claiming. 

Not ordering, but ensuring. 

I am still alive. 

And I will thrive. 

Winter may be here now,

But spring too is coming. And how! 

The Art of observing yourself

 

The Art of observing yourself

 

There are people who are self-aware and there are people who live by others’ projections about themselves. Makes one think - How correct one gets in either of these ways of identity-estimation? How relevant is it to observe oneself? Can one understand society better by observing oneself or is it the other way round?

Let’s first try understanding the various criteria or lenses through which people have a sense of ‘self’.

 

Bodily

The first one can simply be ‘physical’. As ‘Jacques Lacan’ observed. It is that phase where a baby first looks at himself or herself in the mirror and identifies that he/she is different his/her mother and is a separate entity. While growing up identity takes numerous phases but the physical aspect of self-identification begins here.

As puberty happens, there be numerous changes in the body and alongside enter insecurities or conscious evolution or modification. Adulthood later on begets more strength and sexuality further enhances one’s touch with his/her bodily self.

Intimacy, sensory perceptions all make an individual body conscious and even more aware of ‘I’ being the body.

 

Biologically

Through education and of course observation that a person identifies as a human being and looks at himself or herself biologically as a homo-sapiens specie.

 

Sensory

Various senses of a person help him/her connect further with his/her tastes and preferences. Touching one’s own body gives a sense of being. Touching someone else provides the feeling of a sense of other, that further gives identity to one’s own presence.

One gets more meaning through synonyms and antonyms in terms of likes and dislikes of various things, attributes, feelings, experiences – that all together give one a sense of identity.

These likes or dislikes keep on changing. Few become forever. Mostly moderate with age, maturity, exposure and such. And even our identity changes along with them.

 

 

Psychologically

Though humans grow up as replicas of other humans. All our habits or functionality develops by observing and mimicking others. And many remain but a micro or macro versions of their environment or community or family values and believes.

Yet, as we grow up and our sense of rationality develops, we tend to also feel from within – our own rights and wrongs. Rebellious souls are the prime examples of that.

Not to say or judge about righteousness, yet we can say that each has his/her own moral compass and own opinions about ways of the world.

So, our sense of identity also gets shaped psychologically – initially by our immediate environment, our family values, school learnings, friends, neighbors, ruling parties, nationality, language, culture and so on… and later when we decide if we individually prefer to still support a certain political party or belief or way of living or identity.

Our ideas, thoughts, opinions, experiences moderate our sense of self with exposure and maturity.

Leftist becomes rightist, atheist turns into a believer, a person discovers his homo inclinations and even gains the confidence to come out of the closet, vegetarian becomes non vegetarian or vice-verse, sinner redeems his/her sins and decided to dedicate life in reformation and so on!

One can change in a single experience or moment. Or else, many births can fall short.

Few never grow up or evolve. Few live multiple lives in a single lifetime.

All depends upon our experiences and what we make out of them. All depends upon our will to continuously grow and evolve.

Yet, a sensible soul willing to change with time not only learns way more but also makes the most of life!

The best stories after all, have tremendous growth in protagonists’ character.

The lesser one thinks, the easier life gets. For one is simply content with what and where one is. Nothing wrong with that. Yet psychology and philosophy both are oceans of transformations. And anyone even taking occasional swims in that either by fate or curiosity or conscious efforts – has no other way but to change in terms of both how he/she looks at the world but also how he/she looks at himself or herself!

 

Emotionally

Initially a person simply feels. There is less consciousness about any emotion and more feeling of it. A baby cries or coos when hungry or needs his mother. A child is overjoyed when given favorite toys. Like so! All emotions are initially more felt and less processed.

The movie ‘inside Out’ explores exactly that. How various emotional faculties process these emotions in our mind and contribute so significantly to our being!

The emotions however keep on getting complicated as we grow up or get matured. The more sensible a soul is, the more it churns and processes its emotions. One can’t say if those who simply feel without observing are more blessed as they really live life out; or those that get into the real depth behind each of their emotions and understand the root of them before or after are luckier, for they get more aware of their actions, thoughts and real emotions!

I truly believe that ignorance is bliss, yet I also feel grateful to be aware. Though the more one knows, the more is the cost of it. Knowledge is as much a boon as a bane.

Buddhism recommends becoming neutral. To simply observe all our emotions regardless of ups or downs. That is not just a philosophy but an active practice that takes a lot of self-control and detachment from life. And regardless how ascended one is, sooner or later, each human tends to be attached to someone or something; or is impacted by someone or something.

Maybe life is simply about being alive. Where you be 100 percent true to every emotion and live it in its entirety. Yet that is but primitive behaviour. It is easy to drown in sorrows or fly with joys. It is easy to allow anger to take control and even kill someone when one feels like. Yet, being human also has this responsibility to keep a check upon our emotions and let them out in contained limit.

Take the example of present-day society. Even an emotion as pure and deep as love is required to be performed and held in an extremely aware way. The less one expresses, the more powerful the person seems. The more one claims his/her love; the more he/she needs to surrender or obey. Short is the new deep. There is no time for long proclamations of romantic love in today’s world. Emotions are becoming more and more plastic. But that’s a discussion for another time.

I don’t support plastic emotions, most specially contained love relations. Love has to be pure, deep, honest and soulful. Yet again, imagine both the individuals in actual touch with their real emotions. If both are aware about how they really feel with the other individual; there would much less need of words or expressions; and a lot of conversation would rather happen at 5 D level. People would focus upon how healed or loved or celebrated or inspired they feel with the other. They would then value the other person accordingly and rather than abandoning themselves or their loved ones; they would instead embrace love and together that both of them would become better humans.

Yet, in order to really observe ourselves; we must be in touch with our emotions. And it’s not just about our feelings in our hearts or minds or thoughts. Our entire system feels, our skin feels, each cell feels, our soul feels – any and every emotion.

Same like a touch-me-not flower, our skin also shrinks with even a slight ill-intentioned touch. Our soul immediately goes into defensive mode in the presence of someone not accepting or loving towards our soul. The very existence of disease is also extremely connected to emotions. Good cells feel the presence of bad cells and though they fight; yet their chances of winning depend upon both our emotional state and their level of health off course!

 

Consciously

All of us observe ourselves to a certain extent consciously. The level or state of it depends totally upon the person and his/her life path.

People extremely into body fitness throughout keep a check upon their physique and actively work upon maintaining it. The entire beauty industry flourishes because of the extreme obsession of people with their appearances. Clothes, shoes, brands, cars, furs, leathers, ad infinitum – there be products of all kinds – meant to modify and impact human experience or conscious manipulation (positive or negative).

Sages spend their lifetimes just to remain conscious while experiencing life. The sole purpose of meditation is to remain conscious of one entering the realm of sub conscious.

 Pranayamas are highly based upon conscious breathing – meant to elevate the very processing of human mind.

Extremely self-conscious people at times even suffer with social anxiety or are too considerate of others’ opinions or carry an extreme responsibility towards a certain art.

Like, I can really orate anything on stage. Can speak with thousands of people; yet when it comes to singing; I always get a bit conscious. The root can be the fact that I was criticized couple of times by people I admired a lot musically. Or the root can also be in the fact that I am a music lover first and a musician later. I feel this immense sense of responsibility towards doing it the best I can. And still, there is always a scope for improvement. Music after all is an endless ocean of knowledge and art.

Yet the same I, when under the influence of a drink or two, or maybe amidst people who are super supportive and loving towards me; I ace it. Regardless of the grammar part; I sing from my soul then.

And I notice both the states from a third mind. That’s conscious observation. The one which is observing me getting conscious amidst people. And the same one that’s observing me losing all sense of inhibition and simply becoming the moment and the music.

Those who think less and do more, probably are blessed that way. They just feel and do and leave all the conscious thinking for others or maybe future. But ya, the more one is conscious of one’s deeds, the better it be – both for the souls’ growth and humanity.

 

Sub-consciously

And it’s not just about us in the world. There is yet another world that lives and thrives right in our minds. When we sleep and dream – we reach who knows at how many dimensions. We actually travel astrally.

Isn’t it incredible how our mind actually sends us signals through our dreams and visions. I personally am an active dreamer. I literally get numerous vivid dreams and even remember them in proper detail. Back in my childhood, I used to bother everyone around with my flying or crazy movie like dreams. But now, thanks to google, I love to analyze my dreams. Chat-GPT even weaves a proper connection of them with my real life and I get to learn so much about my sub conscious voice.

It is this voice that sages work upon. It is this mind that actually impacts our real time actions decisions. Same like our Moon sign in astrology.

Our sub conscious self becomes the voice of our soul. Regardless what we do, say act in real life – yet when we go back to our homes and at night lie upon our bed – it is those signs of wishes, fears, determination – that become our sub conscious voice. It is when we sleep and our soul gently changes the frequency of our conscious mind. Same like a super diplomatic queen in ancient stories where though men used to be kings for the world yet it was their wives who used to actually rule – just not in front of the world.

That be our sub conscious voice. Helping us trial face our fears in nightmares. Letting us know of our actual feelings towards a certain decision or person.

For example, I found my twin flame a few years back. And for many years, I remained a chaser – if not actively, then energetically. During those years, after every few months; I used to get the guy’s dreams where he was always running away from me. It was my sub conscious voice making me see the reality. I always used to wake up happy just to have seen him; yet my heart used to be heavy for he was always running away from me.  My sub conscious voice kept on showing me the mirror, until I stopped chasing him. Now I just don’t get such dreams.

And it is not just dreams or visions. It can also be an energetic connection to someone. The more aware we be with our essential self; the more we will understand how we feel in different environments or along with various people.

The lesser aware people would blame everything upon weather or maybe others or maybe themselves. Those in touch with their sub conscious voice would consider all these factors; and would totally factor in the sub conscious voice that would always lead them to the root cause of their real feeling.

May be there is a narcissist in the environment and the sub conscious mind has actually observed the pattern much before conscious mind has derived any judgement.

Maybe, there is an energy vampire and the soul would then realize that the energetic drain is not because of an illness or change of weather. It is rather because of a jealous energy in the vicinity.

Like so with soulmate connections or possible friendships as well. The sub conscious mind simply feels the aura connection or the frequency match and makes the mind conscious of a feel-good factor or a happy emotion or a sense of feeling home.

Both familiar traumas and possible healings feel home due to pattern recognition or past memories stored in soul or system. It just is way beyond human capacity to know everything. We come with a wiped clean slate into the world with no manual to life.

Our sub-conscious mind though remains connected to divine. It is that voice that actually becomes the map for our souls.

 

Socially

A lot of people only observe themselves in connection to a social setting. Meanwhile a lot of them simply don’t care about the society and only stay focused upon their individual selves. Yet that too is because of their earlier dealings with the society. Humans are social creatures. The very identity gets framed by mimicking others. So, society plays a key factor in determining a person’s sense of self.

Yet, people like narcissists are hyper vigilant towards their behavior only when it comes to society. They would become the ideal charming human beings when in a crowd or a gathering that they wish to impress or please. Yet, notice them when they are only with their family or in front of a scape goat or those that they have decided to diminish. There they have no sense of courtesy or civic sense or sense of identity. They become real monsters there, intentionally triggering others; simply simping for reactions.

Empaths on the other hand have no choice but simply be extremely conscious and aware of their surrounding or environment or immediate environment. They simply absorb everyone’s emotions. Same like water, they too get colored by whichever colored emotion is added to them. They therefore need to be extra careful about both their own conduct and others as well. They have no choice. They just feel it. A slight twitch of the eye, a slightly different tone, the direction of feet, the sigh in the unsaid – they just notice it all.

 There are those who carry insecurities deep in. they then choose brands or materialistic things or even achievements to flaunt. People fall for appearances or physique or financial background much before they actually get to know the other person’s feelings or thoughts.

All that is because of society. Both how society already functions and therefore conditions us; and also how we wish to be perceived or understand ourselves or the world.

I have met with people whose only sense of identity is the position they hold in a certain company. I pity such people. Imagine tomorrow, if they lose that job, they become jobless nobodies. I have learned it from my own life. Not like I ever was as limited as to hold my identity just with the container of a position. Yet, back in the day, I did switch many jobs. And it was quite humorous; how one day I was respected as a manger of so and so firm and the very next I was pitied upon as a jobless person. I was the same right. Not like, I used to lose my value in a single day. But the society used to change.

Growing up, unfortunately; I had many such people in my life. Who valued others based upon their money or position. Secretly, they always seemed jealous of me. Few of them even accepted it in a fit of rage or something. Others proved that by copying me or my lifestyle or my choices as it is. Yet, I felt their shallow energies when all they could claim as their identity was their position or financial savings. I shouldn’t judge, I know. They too are learning. They too are upon their own path. But ya, it felt weird, how they still continuously try to belittle me; yet copy me in each and everything.

Here though, the topic is different. We are discussing the social awareness of each individual and the exchange that happens between an individual and society post many such observations.

 

Spiritually

There are those who take birth; eat sleep repeat; and then they die. They live totally at the realm of 3 D and they hardly pass a spiritual sigh. And then, there are those who take birth just to suffer more. As more the suffering, more that one ascends spiritually. Though that’s not always the case. Many people take birth with previous good karmas or they already begin with say level ‘n’ of spirituality. So, they need not suffer as much. They directly live a spiritual life – in a monastery as a preacher or they take birth having chosen a life of meditation and spiritual elevation in social isolation.

The art of meditation however is totally dedicated towards observing oneself through a spiritual lens. May it be focusing upon breaths, or emotions. May it be letting all thoughts pass by or reaching the level of thoughtlessness.

May it be connecting to the spirit with in, or becoming the spirit self and connecting to the spirits all around.

 

Universally

Another level is universal. I remember a moment in my life when I was at some peak in Triund, Mcleoganj, Himachal Pradesh. Those were winter months, and I had to step out middle of night under a full moon. The ambience was freezing and it was quite a hassle to step out; yet when I did; I had an epiphany.

Suddenly, the world seemed massive with gigantic mountains, the entire milky way visible with naked eyes with even alpines way below and I being so above tree-line yet so below the constellations and shimmering skyline.

I felt extremely small in front of nature. Yet, I felt special for I was amidst very few souls on that night upon that peak. The experience made me feel as small as an atom for I was not even a dot if seen from the height of the Golden full moon or the constellations. Yet I felt as if I had some meaning, how else would I have been amidst the few chosen ones.

I got a universal perspective towards my own self.

It is not just applicable to our entity; but one can include numerous perspectives when it comes to observing oneself universally.

May it be as a human specie amidst an endless variety of creatures. May it be carrying the entire universe within. May it be in the language of a witch – ‘As above, so below’; may it be as an earthling on a single planet amidst uncountable planets on uncountable and undiscovered constellations.

 

Unconsciously

And then there is also an unconscious observation. It for sure is hardly remembered by anyone or may come back in fragments later or never.

Ask a super drunk person if he/she remembers anything the next day. People have even committed murders or have got married that they simply didn’t remember the next day. That’s what happened with Rachal and Ross in the series ‘Friends’. They got married the second time, I guess in Vegas and simply didn’t remember it.

It is said, that when a person dies, a ten minute video kind of visions run through his/her consciousness in a flash. The video contains key highlights of the person’s life. And even when a baby is born that he/she is believed to see a similar vision – either carrying the blueprint of life to be lived, or memories of previous life or who knows. Yet, it is scientifically proven that, at both these moments; an element in our mind called DMT excretes and we get such visions. Of course, no one remembers these visions in waking life. Baby forgets by the time he learns to speak or express. The dying person anyway dies. These are all unconscious observations or at times the very life.

There are people who talk while sleeping. They are not aware of it. They just do that. Unconsciously. Meanwhile, numerous processes happen psychologically, consciously or sub consciously.

When my cat sleeps in my lap, at times maybe she dreams something, or I really don’t know; but I feel her mouth chewing something or her teeth grinding. It feels such a cute tiny moment upon my leg but I have read that it is her dream state and when cats do that; they are healing themselves unconsciously of any traumas they could have got in the wakeful life. It’s quite amazing. I ensure to never disturb her during such times. I value her sub-conscious and even unconscious mind.

 

Existentially

There are numerous souls who enter existential crises. Few then recover thanks to the feature of forgetfulness that our minds are given as a default feature as. Or else, the charms of the 3D world overtake their questionings. Worldly attachments, roles and responsibilities – there can be numerous reasons for anyone to not really bother about such things.

Yet, the one really ailing with very basic questions does suffer a lot and actually gains another perspective all together towards life. Come to think of it…

‘why exactly are we born? What is the purpose of life?

Who made us? Why are we born this way?

Why are evil people happier and more abundant? Is there any benefit of being good or is it just a man-made thing to dominate over sensitive souls?

Why is humbleness appreciated on paper yet hardly rewarded in real life? Why is modestly only a choice for the time when you actually establish yourself and show results… till then you need to sell or boast about yourself?

What is this world anyway? Are we mere data for some machine? Are we all programs ourselves? Is anything real? Is this life also a kind of video game? What is the purpose of doing anything or becoming anyone when eventually we have to die?

 Why have we created so many chains of society, institutions, religion, rules and responsibilities when we all have a limited life and ultimately, we all have to die? Why can’t we simply live, create, be happy?

Why are we given this feature of forgetfulness? What’s the point of again and again taking a retake of life – that is, if reincarnation is indeed true. Why can’t we all live on like vampires?

Why are we all created in so many permutations and combinations?

Why are humans made this way that we actually have no natural ability to even tolerate nature in our raw forms. Animals are given furs or weapons. We need to create clothes and weapons. Why is this concept of life and death.

Why do women need to undergo such painful procedure of child-birth, while men get all the pleasure with even lesser responsibility?’

I can keep on going about so many similar questions. I can even provide you with answers to all of them. But those are all either picked from various religious or spiritual or philosophical sources or else realized within myself. Yet the authenticity or the righteousness of those answers can’t really be claimed to be the only truth or right for that matter. They can be my truth. Your truth can be different based upon your experiences, knowledge and wisdom. And the real truth can actually be entirely different. Who knows?

There was a time when I was preparing for NET exam for English Literature. That gave me chance to read about hundreds of authors and their work century per century. The timelines changed, countries changed, movements changed; authors were born, authors died; literature was written, literature either got lost, or celebrated, retained or not yet the authors were gone. Diseases happened taking over entire civilizations. World wars happened taking over entire world.

To me it all rather brought disillusionment. Everything seemed senseless. Even becoming a professor or writing a book or doing anything.

Yet long back, I was the same person who after listening to some spiritual lesson of Ashtavakra Geeta had written a poem claiming that though whatever is born, eventually dies; yet that in no way means the culmination of action. That action is essential for life to go on, that too with right intention.

 I am the same person, who totally believed in life even later on. To a point where I quit all books, all jobs and simply decided to live life out loud – travelling and living my own story, becoming the protagonist of it.

Yet, life surely humbles every curious soul, when you realize that regardless how much you dig in or try to explore – life is but like an onion – the more you peel, the more you would keep going on, until there would be but a hollow central piece – mocking at your very process of pealing it. As you ultimately realize, that we hardly know anything and so much that must be accepted as it is, if one needs to remain sane or survive life as fit.

Is the process of questioning or observing itself wrong then? Not at all! Questioning anything is a sign of a sensible and evolved soul. We are not sheep to take everything as it is. Questioning is essential to form your own opinions. May be the answers are never obtained. Or who knows, one may finally find the corner of the world and realize that earth is rather round and was never flat.

That’s the joy of it – discovering the world or oneself!

And the fact that not everything can be answered retains the mystery of it. Keeps it fun.

 

Mystically

Don’t the people prefer to believe more in occult or mystery. There are proper horror genres. There are industries thriving based upon religion or spirituality. People would blindly follow you the moment you include a mystical element to it. Reasoning however is limited to a selected people with higher IQ. And even higher IQ than of those is of those who accept the mystical element and fuse both. A bit of knowledge, a bit of faith.

But, it is absolutely crucial to ask, check, question whatever you can, before you place your blind faith. And even after that, if a question arises, then it is up to you. you got to figure out if the connection or the faith is more crucial to you or the answer to something.

We may otherwise even commit suicide if we actually understand what it means to simply not know your origin or end and still continue living on upon society’s terms, all the while knowing that you actually have an expiry date and so do others.

Maybe the default system of forgetfulness in our mind is actually a gift to us. Else, we simply won’t be able to survive. But is survival really the end goal? Who knows? Keep digging.

 

Elementally

Yet another angle can be the very basic. Elemental. How all five elements not just exist outside but are inside as well. I remember, when I was an adolescent, I one day, told my mom; that we as humans carry all the five elements with In. That our bones are made up of earth element. That there is desert in me, also the ocean. That there is fire with in me, also the air. I was but a child then.

Later I learned about chakras. About how, each of our chakras carries energy of different elements. That root chakra comprises earth. Sacral chakra contains water. Neval has fire. Lungs and therefore heart chakra carries air. Throat chakra has aethar. Third eye chakra has divine energy. Crown chakra is connected to the entire universe, the fifth dimension or cosmos. And the eighth and ninth chakras above that are more connected to God or divine and therefore all prophets are shown with golden and white orbs around their heads.

See, again numerous theories. Now, who has actually seen sand or soil in our system. Yeah, we do drink water. And we also breath. yet, who has seen fire in our bodies. Still, the functionality kind of defines it or does justice to it. Like food gets digested in our system and all emotions process there. And our stomach area anyway remains hot. Or blood is liquid in nature and therefore can be equated with water. Or bones and skin are solid in nature and therefore can be seen as element earth.

Spirituality has even further defined these theories going to the lengths of even defining the elemental nature of our very thoughts and even emotions or sensations. The theory claims that we become what we eat. Whatever we consume in our environment – may it be food or drinks, thoughts or arts, people or experiences, traumas or good memories, nature or architecture – it all becomes our thoughts and even emotions. And therefore, all our thoughts and feeling are also essentially made up of all these five elements.

Yet another cosmic theory says that in fifth dimension, where there is no concept of matter, where we all are but energies; we then seize to have any differences and rather become essentially one.

A scientific theory claims that there is nothing like matter. That matter too is but atoms of energy but closely knitted together. By that notion, there is no you and no I. there is nothing real the way we see. It is all but an illusion of energy.

 

Now, I can’t really tell you what is right? Who am I? Or who are you? Yet the act of observation is super interesting for it brings us closer to our essential self!

A preacher once gave me a task – to keep on asking myself; ‘Who am I? Who am I?’ The challenge was to continue going on. Way beyond name or identity descriptions. Beyond community. Beyond nation. Beyond soul or spirit. Beyond cosmos.

Until, one realizes, that like an onion, we have uncountable layers; yet no one right finite answer to us.

 

Why then observe oneself? What’s the point of having so many denotational acronyms?

I don’t know. It’s fun. And I don’t even know what’s the right way otherwise? Oh, I forgot Astrology! But not many believe in it. And that too is again limited and a part of it.

It’s like Jacques Derrida critiqued post structuralism, that there is actually no real meaning or central thought. That the picture in my mind and the object in reality would always be different in your mind or through your perspective. That the very language itself is rather limited. That meaning can only be obtained through a series of synonyms and antonyms which all inter-play amidst each other – yet never let you know the exact signified object as there can be no unified signifier to it.

That, provided the meaning is known and is shared by all.

Here, we have absolutely no idea about so many things.

Still, the very process of observing oneself at least helps us give ourselves – some kind of meaning. May it be in connection to the world. Or may it be of the world or life – in connection to us.

Maybe the witches are right,

‘As above, so below, as within, so without.’

Maybe science is right that we are nothing but energy playing in rigid structures.

Maybe spirituality is right, that we all are but one collective energy – assuming various shapes and forms, trying to evolve and ascend universally.

Maybe, we all are but star-seeds contributing to cosmic frequency.

Maybe, we are nothing but mere computerized programes, functioning with how we are coded; and contributing with our emotions and experiences.

Maybe, we are but primitive and have no real purpose and are same like animals or trees. Simply living on. Simply continuing our species to ensure the functionality of biological cycle’s continuity.

Maybe, this is but one of many dimensions and we are merely one of those choices ensuring that it exists.

 

I don’t know. Nor do you. It can make total sense to you or can be absolutely useless to you. Who knows, if we are but a character in a video game – being played on. Or maybe there are characters who have no real purpose at all. They are just in the background creating the vibe of a place. holding the energy. Or maybe, we do have a choice like in video games, people connect and interact in real life boxes.

Can we step out of this matrix? Is there really any such grid?

Who are we? Why are we here?

This is just a prismed overview of life or self – observed by my limited experience and years!

The invisible currents between people

 

The invisible currents between people

 

What connects us

Have you ever fallen in love with someone right at first sight? Or simply detested someone simply trespassing by you. or if not such strong emotions, still what binds us to certain souls yet prevent us from connecting with others? How do few people easily bond with so many, yet others either can’t or don’t want to. What’s the glue between relations?

Aura connection, soul connection or simply the fact that you like or dislike someone with or without any reason! - What could be the connecting factor here? Of course, the liking or disliking between two individuals can be credited to certain attributes or qualities, even looks or other sensory triggers!

But the most significant of all as per my analysis is the energetic connection amidst us all. And it is not only just between people. Even non-living things, celestial objects, stars and planets, people, animals, insects, birds, sand particles, water droplets, ad-infinitum! We all carry a certain energy and that becomes our unseen signature/entity/attribute/personality.

 

What is this Energy?

There be people who enter a room and fill it with life energy! As if they be their own Sun – ever emitting love and light. And then, then be people who carry a cloud of grief upon their head. Whatever be the reason for it. Such emotions and energies can be temporary. Yet each and everyone has a certain energy or frequency that stays like their impression. Same like our thumb prints. Only these be invisible and non-material.

Like an Amethyst crystal would always be healing. That’s its nature. A rose quarts would attract unconditional love. A clear quartz would amplify whatever energy one charges it with. People too be the same. Few are healing. Few filled with love; few simply amplify their environment or people they come in contact with.

And wilderness too behaves the same way. Few animals are wild. Few are innocent and become preys. Few remain wild. Few can be tamed. Same like people. Yet all this is but generally speaking.

 

What creates individual energies?

Each and every one of us carries a unique energy to us. Even if the same set of emotions like love, hate, anger, grief, disgust etc. have been available to all of us – from ever, for ever! The emotions be the same. But in which intensity and with which permutation and combination – that makes each person a unique energy.

And it is not just emotions. There be so many factors to it. Past life karmas, present life upbringing, life choices, friends, environment, life experiences, traumas, achievements, life purpose, life goals, soul contracts, various agreements before birth including twin flame connections, yuga one is born in, world’s own cycle, collective evolution, individual evolution – numerous factors contribute to an individual become a certain energy or having a particular frequency that may or may not evolve – though that’s the nature of it!

There be people who simply remain the same through out life. They eat, sleep, repeat – consume whatever possible and drag on their life like that. Without ever bothering about existential questions or spiritually evolving or even being aware about those things.

Then there are people who actively work upon either society or themselves and contribute to individual or collective evolution.

There are souls who get birth to undergo supreme traumas to gain as much of spiritual flight – if not in that then the next birth. And that’s how they contribute to the collective.

There be karmic journeys of souls – including various emotions, interactions, good or bad connections!

Regardless what kind of life one lives or is born to live; we can draw a conclusion that even if we all are humans; yet we all are unique in terms of our energy!

There be people born to do something phenomenal. There are people who remain the background characters in a video game – creating the vibe of a setting. There are heroes and criminals, gods and demons, tragedies and comedies and in today’s time – various shades of grey!

And still, each shade is unique, each frequency is different! Not to judge which is better or worst. Each number has its own role in the number system. Each frequency has its unique contribution to the collective evolution of consciousness! Yet understanding these energies gives us a better perspective upon our purpose in life and helps us in interacting better with others!

 

Mathematical functionalities

In previous articles, I have already discussed about – how each of us carries a unique numbered frequency and how we connect or resonate with others based upon the mathematical possibilities of multiplication or division or categorisation like odd or even numbers or prime numbers. The same way numbers interact; likewise do people - in terms of gaining experiences, lessons, getting inspirations from or learning from others!

And of course, people at the same wave length or sharing the same number frequence would immediately connect better to create a synergy as compared to those who either are from different categories or can’t even share a mathematical functioning in terms of frequency.

 

Intuitive connections

Another common link between us all is intuition - the chords of which are managed by collective consciousness from the ‘fifth dimension’. This too I have discussed earlier. But here, we can focus upon how and why it is relevant.

The ‘Bhrahman’ or consciousness keeps on reminiscing upon the ways and processing of the collective energies of the world. It not only considers the actual happenings but also the thoughts that may or may not happen. It has clear access to dreams, to sub-conscious, to people’s aspirations, dreams and even fears!

There are multiple processes happening at that realm. On one hand, there is this universal journey of energy that drives the collective based upon what should be the right follow up step in the evolution of the world. It can bring revolutions, can upturn power dynamics, can emphasise upon various issues or species and bring changes that impact the energy of the entire earth at large.

World wars, patriarchy, matriarchy, various institutions like marriage and religions, transformations in civilisations, evolution is various art forms, introduction and change in tools or technology, people meditating at large, people finishing a certain breed of humans in mass etc. – can all be ultimately accredited to collective consciousness – that propagated, assisted, led, even culminated – all these functionalities if, when and wherever required.

In a way, our intuition is an invisible network of connection with everyone around including the celestial, the super natural, the ethereal, the divine, the elemental and whatever is seen or unseen yet existing in universal vicinity!

So, when a good person is actually bereft of all help, yet takes a first step seeking divine assistance, it is this intuition that threads a certain individual to go at a particular time and give that person a lift or help of some kind. It is this intuition that connects yet another relevant connection to lift the person’s spirits up and help him/her reach the next step of safety and hope and maybe even something that offers a better scope.

Numerous artists have gained overnight success thanks to this secret energetic network. Numerous deserving people have really got help even if they didn’t know a single soul but had a deep connection unknowingly to this intuitive whole.

When people claim that their God walks beside them and therefore, they don’t need to rely upon people – it is this network that they have access to. because their conscious is pure and they ask directly from cosmos. Their intuition then guides them and takes them exactly where they are meant to be and helps them stay away from all harms and duplicities.

It is this intuition that helps soul-mates connect at a place and time when they be at the same wave length and are meant to teach each other some lesson or elevate the other.

It is this intuition that creates a network of incidents that gain momentum eventually creating a revolution amidst a generation or a connection turning into a relation or a person realizing the hidden truth beyond facades of lifetime lies and so much more.

Intuition therefore has a lot to do with how people interact and connect at various phases, places, timelines of their loves!

 

Power dynamics and social constructs

Another significant attribute to people connecting or disconnecting can be the society in which a set of individuals live.

Most of the individuals are rather weak soul and lack the confidence to both stand up for themselves or others. They often follow mob mentality. So, if everyone else is hating upon a certain individual, then they too would decide to hate that person; without even giving them a benefit of doubt or forming their own opinions about that person by getting to know him/her.

Humans are social animals and most of them rather follow power and lack the guts required to figure out their own truths or stand up for what seems correct to them.

And one may have solid opinions or even courage to support an outcast, yet the power dynamics or individual circumstances may still restrict their behaviour to become their most authentic self.

Like a child may love dogs or cats immensely and may eve have the ability and empathy to take care of a pet. But the family system can be so that they are not allowed to have one. So until they step out of that home or power dynamic; they can’t really have that pet. The choices become a parent and a pet. That’s a dubious choice. One can’t really choose an animal over a family member.

And that is but an example. That can be allied to a man seeking a wife from some other caste or section of society. That can be a daughter having a unique lifestyle or a rebellious personality.

Lucifer too had to step out of Heaven when he failed to follow each and every rule of God. Not saying who was right or wrong. That’s but mythology.

However, there are still power dynamics that exist and massively impact connections. And so does the society.

People connect by gossiping against someone. People connect by standing up for something. The glue can be made of love or hate or any strong feeling about a certain aspect. The righteousness of the emotion is not the point here. The point is the existence of that force that connects people. Here it is politics or society or an emotion that creates mob mentality or even groups or categories!

Religious groups or spiritual organisations too can be commoderated under the same observation. People are ready to die or kill for what their leaders tell them to. these energies may or may not be agreed with or originate from their real authentic self. But they still function and totally impact the conduct of people with other people.

 

Art & Culture

Another interesting interaction that happens amidst humans is through art. May it be paintings or music or whatever form of art. The impact of the art may not be seen but can be experienced and contains massive power to make people behave or interact or connect or disconnect a certain way.

Porn industry thrives upon this principle. It creates the energy of lust. While those succumbed to based emotions would totally get pleasure out of them, yet those who prefer to have depth in their connections and not consider other humans as mere flesh – may get disgusted by the superficiality of that shown. Whatever be the reaction; but it totally generates an energy that may arouse others and even become a catalyst to people’s attitude towards others (say rapes can increase, marriages can suffer with inauthentic expectation, people may go for plastic surgeries and bodily alterations to meet those unnatural standards); or else, they may make the authentic souls feel disgust with mere bodies gaining so much of value and they would then go deeper into their souls and seek meaningful connections.

Music can also be considered similarly. There have been musicians powerful enough to not just sway people across languages and borders with their lyrics or tunes; but they have also managed to create waves of transforming emotions – may it be love, or grief or awareness or realizations. World has cried with few songs, world has felt depth of romance with others. World has felt the limits of hell with traumatized musicians; world has travelled with free souled ones.

There have been music genres of all kinds. Country can take one to simplicity, blues can touch one’s grief or growth, metal can empower or become solace for those seeking silence in chaos, sufi can inspire mystics, pop can share contemporary ideas and so on. Whatever be the genre, yet music for sure impacts humans immensely. It can build or destroy not just a vibe but a place, not just an individual consciousness but can also impact the collective.

Sound energy though can’t be seen but it has such deep impact upon our energies. Come to think of it, every tiny particle of earth has its own sound to it. And so do humans.

We may fall in love with someone just by their voice. We may find someone extremely intolerable just because of their voice. Our voice is the voice of our soul. It reflects our individual energy.

And music at large impacts the collective energy.

Food can also be yet another art form that connects people with their culture or familiarity of home or nostalgia of a certain place or phase of their life. How when one eats an authentic dish from their culture, it takes them back to their childhood self, or that feeling of home or feeling of taken care of.

How a certain coffee of a certain brand always becomes a stress relief as the first time you had it, that’s the feeling you could have had because of then good circumstances.

Food for sure has its therapeutic effect and can make or break someone’s day or spirit.

That’s why prisoners are given tasteless food to in a way punish them by restricting their access to flavours and tastes and therefore life!

People eat when they feel depressed. People eat when they are happy. People share drinks to connect, to party. People share so much of their life – just based upon foods and drinks.

Food is not just a medium to survive. It becomes an invisible bond to connect people. It’s another art form that impacts humans and connects or disconnect them.

A vegetarian may not want to partner up with a person having non-vegetarian preferences. A vegan would find even a vegetarian disgusting. Yet, two people with sweet-tooth would love to share not just one evening but every second evening with a frothy cup of coffee and a choice of their favourite sweet delicacy.

Ethnicity

At times its not even food preferences or music tastes. At times it can be as basic as belonging to the same country or village; or sharing the same language.

 Ask a person living in a foreign land for many years who suddenly meets with someone from his motherland. He won’t even bother about the other’s tastes and preferences. Just the simple fact that he shares the same roots would immediately connect the two.

The energetic connection would be immediate without them needing to really know particulars about each other or having common areas of interest.

 

Sexual Tension

Another significant tangent of human connection be totally based upon sexual energy that though is primitive yet extremely functional.

Regardless of sex or gender, those with feminine energy naturally receive and those with masculine energy totally know how to be chivalrous and give. And though humans have built the entire capitalistic society based upon showcasing females as the ones attracting and males as those who gaze yet if we really dive deep into both nature and real functioning of attraction then it is masculine energy that stays stable and attracts with its various attributes and feminine energy that gets emotional and attracted and persuaded or dissuaded by those attributes.

Again, it has nothing to do with whether you are a male or a female. Masculine energy, same like Shiva is neutral. Is like a mountain – stable. Feminine energy like Skakti is powerful, has emotional intensities; flows like river and has all ups and downs in its propensity.

And same like nature, humans too are built in a way where there is naturally a sexual chemistry between masculine and feminine energies – regardless of your sexuality or preferences.

Even in homosexuals, there is one that be more masculine and another that behaves more feminine. And in heterosexuals too, one there is of course standard attraction between a male and a female; yet even there, there can be variations. A more feminine male would tend to be attracted to a more masculine female and vice-verse.

 How people relate, whom do they choose, what do they really feel – is for another discussion; however, the sexual energy for sure is super powerful – not just as an energy impacting interactions amidst people but also as the driving force of society or individuals.

A young female may get more attention and better treatment than an old one while a basic shopping spree. A good-looking man may attract more attention and female favours than an average looking one.

And it is not only about looks or riches or personality or other attributes. Sexual energy in itself is a different force. There are people who just have a way with attracting others’ interest. They know how to tap in - into not just their own sexuality but also arouse something in the other.

And that force is so basic and so natural that humans don’t even realise it over-powering their actions or decisions.

Deodorant ads therefore telecast a herd of females flocking over a male after he has used their product. A cold-drink company telecasts the lips of an actress with the residual of the last drop of their drink. And a certain force subtly rises in an average consumer wishing for the same that they see. And that is simply advertising agency brainwashing you!

What about how it functions in our society – in everyday, with us not even realising it often times.

How teenage girls talk in a different voice when interacting with boys. How an erotic female voice has more ability to sell a tele-caller life insurance policy. How, the perfume used by someone you were once intimate with may make you feel immediately attracted to someone else who may be using the same brand.

The sexual tension between different genders or sexes or individuals or even at the level of collective – is a massive force that can even be manipulated, or regardless of that, it simply flows with or without us knowing.

Presence of a single woman in a flat of bachelor men can bring massive changes in them and their lifestyle without even her doing anything or actually getting intimate with anyone.

A single male’s presence in a group of females can change their entire topic of conversations and the way they talk or feel about themselves or others.

It is this sexual force that tantra taps into and manifests crazy powers for themselves. It is this force that is so powerful that when it is practiced biologically, it creates life; when it is practiced spiritually, it impacts life and if it is practiced socially, it becomes life.

 

Karmic Connections

Then there are Karmic bonds to consider. It is believed that souls keep on taking births together or around until their karmas get entirely cleansed or balanced. Like if A misbehaved with B, then B would consciously or unconsciously would get a chance to either forgive or let or even misbehave with A           - in either the same birth or next or some other birth in some way, shape or form.

Likewise with love or hate connections. Say if A loved B immensely in one birth, then in another birth they may share a parent child bond. Or even if they hated each other, even then, they may become a child or a parent with abusive tendencies.

And that’s how even friendships get developed. Or office colleagues. Or bullies. These are all our own karmas that we balance off in one or other births.

Every energy gets balanced in cosmos.

And each has to account for his or her karmas in one way or other. So, the reason that you may suddenly get obsessed with someone may not have anything to do with his/her current attributes. It can be past life love connection.

That’s how each individual evolves and grows, by balancing karmas, by knowing what is better, by finishing unfinished emotions; ultimately completing each cycle of energy or connection and finally contributing to the collective evolution of consciousness!

 

Trauma Bonds

And it is not just our karmas but also emotional frequency or experiences that impact whom we attract or get attracted to – in our life. For example, a person who has experienced many bullies in his/her life – would keep on getting more bullies or similar situations until the person evolves and faces the root cause of it all and stands up for himself or herself or figures out a way to not be bullied anymore.

A person with serious abandonment issues will keep on meeting with people who would trigger the same abandonment feeling in him/her until the person learn self-love and rather becomes so solid in substance that people’s presence or absence does not bother him/her anymore. Only then that people would willingly love to be along as it would be a connection not based on need but want.

Many a times, we also feel solace with people who have undergone traumas similar to us. In many countries or branches of psychology, Trauma survivors therefore form groups and simply share their own experiences and guide each other about how to be stronger.

Even partners with similar childhood traumas have more scope of a relationship as while being together, they tend to not just be more empathetic towards each other’s needs but they heal the other’s childhood versions as they themselves get healed with finally the right kind of love that they receive.

 

Mirror images

It is not just similar traumas that connect us. It can even be the certain frequency we buzz at – at a particular phase of our life.

Buddhism believes that nothing that we see is actually real. That whatever is inside is reflected outside and vice-verse.

So, if you are conflicted inside, you may either spectate many conflicts outside amidst other people or you may even find yourself arguing more or fighting with others.

And if you are feeling love then you would be given more and more situations to share your compassion and love. So external reality either becomes a mirror to your inner emotions or level of consciousness or else it becomes an amplifier of the same; until you see or learn what you need to experience and make the required changes in yourself.

If you feel right inside, then you would get more chances to do right outside or bring righteousness to the world. If you feel something is wrong inside, then you would meet similar experiences outside until you reach the root of it and make it right.

Many trauma survivors don’t even know about their traumas until they see someone else undergoing the same or finally giving voice to it or an outsider does the same to them and not a family member this time and they feel something entirely wrong about it. And finally, that they realise the immensity of the trauma they had been undergoing. Ask a person born in a narcissistic household and they would be the epitome of such cases.

 

 Other forces

Apart from aforesaid possibilities, people do connect at so many other levels as well.

It can be ethereal where spirit guides gently nudge us towards certain individuals who be good for our growth.

It can be telepathic where our loved ones miss us so immensely that we just connect to them and either get their dreams or miss them as well.

It can be ancestral where their spirits still protect and guide us even if from a realm unknown and unseen by us.

It can be divine intervening and taking us to those who are right for us and may become a catalyst in our growth.

It can be habits – good or bad – that make us interact or connect with certain souls more as they share the same habits or even interests.

It can be our very destiny that demands us to impact or be impacted by chosen souls to bring a change in the collective.

 

Whatever be the force or reason. Yet, this for sure can be concluded; that we do communicate even without words. And that, there is an invisible energy that flows between people. May it be sexual or intuitive, telepathic or karmic. May it be a soul bond or social, cultural or interactive. It can be intellectual curiosity. It can be other worldly.

How ever that we interact, but it is never just that! The subtle flows that process our emotions and communications and interactions with each other goes way deeper and is simply multi-dimensional.