Tuesday, August 31, 2021

When it comes to Love!

 



One way is to be in so much of love

That you surrender

To every thrashing of the wave

Every caress and kiss.

Every frustrated release.

Every rebuke, each deed. 


Another is of self love.

To stand strong against 

Anything wrong.

To give as much respect to even self

As you expect

From the rest of the world.

To heal and care for self first.

And then extend it to any other.


But who is other

When it comes to Love!

Don't we give a piece extra

To the one we love?

And isn't love the major binding force,

The core raw material

The cosmic cure?


But equally important 

Is Respect!

Respect of the 'sense of self'

By self and beloved!

Yet, who needs that?

Ego? Self? Life itself?


And one can't ever be sure -

If the intimacy of an entire ocean

Be reciprocated the same way

By an earthy shore!

One may be overly giving,

One can be simply absorbing!

One can be in need to be held!

One can be rightly strong to keep the beloved intact! 

Different ways of expressions - 

May or may not receive 

The same reciprocation!


Then what's the right way?

To surrender or the high way?

What's the right way?

To accept or bring a change?

And is there really any right way?

For that's the nature of waves.

To keep coming to the shore,

Yet running away!

And that's the nature of the shore 

To keep waiting - 

For every embrace!

To keep thirsting for more! 


And there is no way for both 

To but be together - as a whole!

Expanding and contracting.

Dancing in a duet -

Now fighting, now kissing!


~ Surbhi Rohera

Friday, August 6, 2021

'Try me'

 



Back in old Manali, in one of the guest houses I stayed in, the owner had the audacity to ask me to 'try him' it seems! He very confidently told me, 'arrey mujhe try to kar ke dekh. Mai itna bura bhi nai hun'. And he meant Sex! That disgusted me to my core. I told him, 'Kuch cheezein inedible hoti hain'.
Why don't humans respect themselves? And from him, I never ever got any vibe of love or anything. I always found him wagging his tail behind money and girls.
And he never belonged to anybody. Sometimes I pitied his loneliness and desperation, yet oftentimes I got disgusted by his over obsession with consumption.
The day he said those words was the limit.
It made me ponder so much about how shallow people are. And at a place like Old Manali, where mountains provide strength and rivers flow free... Why do humans behave in such shallow and lecherous ways?
When he didn't get his ways, he misbehaved with me the next day. So disturbed was I with the entire ordeal that I left that place in quite a hurry and as a result left my earphones right on my room's bed. I called him in an hour. No one else had visited that room. Yet, I never got back my earphones.
It wasn't about earphones, though they were quite important for me over there. But more than that it was the negative effect that entire episode had on my head.

Though being a solo traveler I'm used to such shitty people. Often times owners of guesthouses think it to be their right to flirt or give it a try. Or your own friends turn all lusty taking you to be available. Or even the new friends that you make give it atleast a shot claiming to have feelings and shit!
Why don't people respect friendship? Why is lust more preferred than purity of a connection?

I don't know why am saying all this right now! Now when am not even in Old Manali. Or facing any such people in my life.
Just looking back, after each of my trips, along with all the beautiful memories I carry of a place, I also carry such experiences. And that pains me!
I wonder if they would ever get to experience real love? For their thoughts and actions are lightyears away from any real feelings. Even sex can only be enjoyed when it has feelings. Otherwise it's just an act. And we are not animals to simply fuck around with anybody and everybody. Rather even they have choices and boundaries.
Why are women so objectified and judged?

And not only men do that, even women take advantage of this low vibed stuff.
All these tik tok videos these days with women crossing even the limit of item songs. They are not even aesthetically appealing. Simply body being jiggled to get views. And similarly few women behave even outside.
And although, I am none to judge anyone. Everyone has his own way of looking at life, has his/her own principles of dealing with others... And often my own principles become my shortcomings for this is Kalyuga. And everything is for sale here.
But it still hurts me. And I feel but sad for this society.
And often I wonder, what can I do to change this world? Maybe voicing out my views can be one of the steps! For I have stayed quite for too long and that doesn't sit well with me any more. To bring a change, one must speak out. And here's the first step.

It's not a ranting. Not even a negative post. Just sharing my views. Highlighting a bug in our system. Maybe people judge me, for it's always the girl that is blamed by the society. Yet maybe, someone understands, how much their conduct affects the overall energy of the world. And that making love is a divine act. Body is not just flesh. And things like friendship may mean a lot to someone, provided they are valued and the intentions come correct.

🙏🙏

Tuesday, August 3, 2021

Jise jo samajhna hai samjhe

 





Jise ana hai aye,

Jise jaana hai jaaye.

Jise jo samajhna hai samjhe.

Ye zindagi mujhe mere 

Ammi abbu ne di hai.

Us kaaynaat ne di hai.

Us khuda ne di hai.

Meri qismat, meri buddhi, 

Meri awaargi, meri zindagi

Sab rehmat hai in sab ki

Aur in sab se bhi zyada hai ye 

Meri khud ki.

Haan karna hai bahaut kuch 

Bahauton ke liye

Par auron ko khush karne 

Nakli sheesha ban kar nahi

Jeena hai mujhe 

Paa kar khud ko.

Arrey mai hi khud ko talaash rahi hoon

Har roz kuch naya seekh

Har roz khud ko taraash rhi hoon

Toh tum kya samjhoge 

Jo jaante hi nahi mujhe dhang se

Shakl hi dekhi hogi

Ya do pal guzarenge honge

Ya apni seemit soch se

Mere kuch aks tole honge.

Mai to paani hoon 

Beh rhi hoon

Har roz kisi nayi ghaati par

Kal kal khel rhi hoon

Dekho aaj mai badal ban kar ud rhi hoon

Mehsoos karo 

wo hawa bhi mai hi hoon

Aur ye jo agni tum sekte ho na

Akele thand mein

Uski taap aur jalan koi aur nahi 

Mai hi hoon

Aur wo suraj ko jo tum niharte ho subah sham

Uski kirno ki lalima bhi mai hi hoon.

Aur jin pahadon ko door se nihaar

Tum baar baar karte ho 

Apne pyaar ka izhaar

Uski jaan, uski shakti, uspar lehrati har Patti patti 

Mai hi hoon

Aur tum mei jitne aks hai mere bnte 

Wo bhi mai hun

Aur mai kuch bhi nahi hoon.

Aur jab kuch nahi to kaun tum 

Kaun mai?

Jaise sab ek

Jaise har ek anek.

Har koi apna lagta hai

Har koi sapna lagta hai.

Tum kaun aur mai kaun

Aur ye aks kaun.

Mai toh khud ko talaash rhi hun

Har roz taraash rahi hun

Kabhi ghul rhi hoon

Kabhi naach rhi hoon

Kabhi kuch nahi hoon

Kabhi har kuch mai hi hun

Toh kya farq padta hai

Ki tum kya sochte ho

Tum ho ya nahi ho

Tum mere baare mei kya sochte ho

Ho skkta hai wo sab sach ho 

Ya ho skta hai 

Tum hi sach na ho

Kyunki sach to kuch nai bas 

Maana hua tathya hai

Har din kuch naya hai 

Har din ek mithya hai

Waqt chalta hai 

Fir bhi samundar sa vistrit hai

Tum bhi ek leher 

Main bhi

Fir kaun kya hai 

Kiska aks satya hai? 

Jise ana hai aye, 

Jise jaana hai jaaye. 

Jise jo samajhna hai samjhe. 

Hain to hum sab lehrein hi shayad. 

Ya fir kuch aur hi hai satya. 

Mai khud khud ko talaash rahi hun. 

Tumhe kya batayun satya. 

Mai bhi yatri, tum bhi

Mai bhi waqt, tum bhi

Mai hun tum

Tum ho mai 

Aah! Kaisi tu tu mai mai.


~  Mystical Wanderer 

Friday, July 9, 2021

Like a soulmate




 I don't know why

But you seem like a soulmate

Such attraction, such belongingness.

Oh, but you are different.

True, many similarities.

And I loved your humanity.

Only if it was equally passionate.

Oh, but how is the comfort - already there?

How do we simply belong

To each other.

Not really.

But slightly.

And it has nothing to do with my needs or situations.

It's just there - 

This connection.

But do you feel the same?

More I dig in,

More you seem distantly framed.

Maybe you have nothing in mind.

And it's just a vaca

But how do I tell you

Or even explain it to myself?

Why the connection?

Why even so many adjustments.

How the right on you 

How everything bare

With no wall - 

After so long.

Oh, you remind me of someone.

And truly the one who mattered the most 

Forever to be true!

And here you are

But I know nothing about you.

Your life, what you seek in lieu.

And I honestly don't know my type.

For I keep changing

And so do my types

If they ever exist.

Mostly I just crave for the right vibe.

Yours still is bit distracted

A bit less passionate

But oh, so perfectly full of compassion

But a bit less in strength 

To do the dirty work.

Or stand for the right.

But that can be said, 

Even about me.

For I know how to be dark or dirty

But I lack the strength of it.

Or maybe it's my choice.

And maybe it's yours as well.

And that takes even greater strength.

Oh, and somehow I demand your attention inside

I know it for I feel happy 

When you provide 

A little more care

A little more expression.

I feel the pressure when you hold me.

I feel the reason behind your numerous sighs 

Of all types.

Also I like how you handle everything.

Only sometimes, a little too loud

Or a little too mild.

But we are still getting to know each other.

Also I know you got to leave this place.

So am a bit scared for the future.

Of possible attachments

Especially the hollowness that follows separation.

And I also feel proud of my solo existence.

So that's a huge cost

I don't know if you would understand it .

But hey! We manage individual spaces quite well

And also we so smoothly create a mutual world full of fascination

And that twinkle in your eyes again is amazing

But should I even think so much about you or us 

at such an early point 

This temporary phase.

But it doesn't seem as new

I feel like we already knew

Each other and us

Maybe in some other birth.

Maybe it's all my illusion

And these are days just like any other

But Hey! We had such a powerful beginning

To imagine 

Each day at a new place

Every morning a new discovery

About the other, 

About us.

And we are covering leaps of connection

Through silence and sounds

Actions and thoughts.

And even the unsaid is often understood

Except sometimes you forget 

To ask a certain thing

At a certain point.

But it's only been few days.

Really? 

Are you my soulmate? 

Some destined meet for sure.

Only time will help us explore.

Just that, this or more.



Thursday, January 28, 2021

Adios my love!




 If you are done,

Then so am I.

Maybe that is indeed

Cosmic designed. 

For so long did I pursue you 

In vain.

It would have been natural

Had it meant to be.

Maybe it was all 

Only in my mind.

Some image of your.

Some utopian rhyme.

Maybe I brought it all to myself.

The emotional tide

The highs and lows.

Aah! I have nothing against you.

All I have is gratitude.

For it was your vibe

That helped me 

Experience love with that might.

Where you did nothing

Yet your presence was everything.

If your mere being there

Could invoke so many emotions

I wonder how flooded the world would have been

Had I got 

Even an ounce of reciprocation.

Farewell my friend!

Live your life free.

I release you today

From any bonds or memories.

For maybe 

We were never meant to be.

How else could you have

Not felt or seen

My love's intensity, sanctity, immensity.

Adios! Live your life free.

My love deserves reciprocation!

I choose love today. I choose living free. 

Free from your blames and names.

Free from your inability to ever claim

Me or my love

When there was nothing but surrender

For years I did wait.

But now, it's late

A new morning is calling 

And this route

I must take

It's a divine calling

Adios! Says the 'Rake'! 


~ Mystical Wanderer 

Monday, January 18, 2021

Sun sakta hai to sun




 Kai meelon door

Kai Parton andar

Agar sun sakta hai to sun

Har dhadkan tujhe pukarti hai

Har dhun tujhe manti hai

Meri rooh ki saadgi

Janmon ki pyaas bhi

Mera har andaaz

Nakhre naaz

Ankhon ka raaz

Sar ka taaj

Bas tera ehsaas

Bas teri awaaz


Waqt ke panne palat kar dekh

Peeche bhi hum they

Agey bhi hum milenge


Akele nai hai tu

Jab bhi jagega

Saath khade milenge.


Teri taal par mere ghunghru naachte huye

Tere sur se sur milate huye

Tujhe taakte huye

Muskurate huye

Tujh par faqr rakhte

Tujhe lubhate huye 


Kai meelon door

Kai parton andar

Sun sakta hai to sun

Teri hun mai

Aur tu mera

Ye koi haq nai

Yeh rishta hai gehra

Rooh se rooh ka milan

Bin chue sirhan

Pakeezgi aur zindagi

Ka milan

Man hi man

Man hi man


A parallel reality

 



I have an empty house

I also have a wish to meet

And oh! How am gonna love you

Like a dog seeks food on street.

And you appear so close

For often my eyes see

That thirst in your eyes

The untold plight.

And yet this ego you wear

That is the only wall.

Now I may knock it down 

In a simple blow.

Call you over.

And I know

You will come.

You won't have any other go.

But then you know

I too have the same stardust.

Aah! This same ego.

Maybe in a parallel world

Where we talk often

And you keep up with

What's going on in my swirls

There we don't just live in formalities

But interact and understand

And live without dualities.

There, we just use these

Tiny oppertunities.

We meet and make love.

In a parallel reality. 

Sunday, January 17, 2021

How intimate


 


How closer could we have come, 

when we knew each other for years along,

when we even made love 

when the stars were strong.

when we were indeed there 

despite of time's round.

And still 

you you had the audacity

to consider our bond to be

not so strong.

To appear to be an unknown.

To meet me as someone and not your very own.

What a waste of a real connection.

How silly are human actions.

- Mystical Wanderer

Friday, January 15, 2021

Misty Night

 



So so foggy 

Misty, magical.

Realm of ethereal.

Here I wish for a sign

Like a torchlight waving 

From the window across

And I am gonna shine a light 

From my spot. 

And two souls will communicate

In this foggy misty night. 

Who knows it begins

A fairy tale. 

My own story.

Aah! Am a romantic at heart. 

Spinning and weaving 

With my imagination and dreams. 

Dancing and waltzing 

To an inner monologue

Still believing in super natural

Still wishing for rainbows and unicorns.

~ Mystical Wanderer

Sunday, January 10, 2021

Rebirth

 



It's a rebirth. 

Specially made of love. 

Self healed. Self served. 

It's a rebirth. 

Taking out my wand

To manifest, to comprehend. 

It's a magical energy. 

So relieving. So free. 

Free from my fears. Finally!

So enchantingly. 

Almost orgasmically. 

And it's a shower of blessing. 

From earth to sky - connecting me.

Oh! The heaves of relief. 

So refreshing. So full of love. 

A new me. Fearlessly. 

From root to heart. 

Till head. 

Throbbing with love energy. 

It feels beautiful.

This unison with me.

For the first time in my life

I have loved me

This focussed. 

This magically. 

Oh the morning fog

With occasional drizzle

The music along

This feeling so free. 

This cosy, this cold.

Back with inner warmth. 

Oh! It's beautiful.

So magical. 

So much at peace. 

It's a rebirth. 

The butterfly effect. 

The chosen way. 

Manifesting happiness.

Creating creation.

Connecting to the cosmos.

Aligning beyond dimensions. 

So one. So free. 

In love with me. 


~ Mystical Wanderer