'Try me'

 

Back in old Manali, in one of the guest houses I stayed in, the owner had the audacity to ask me to 'try him' it seems! He very confidently told me, 'arrey mujhe try to kar ke dekh. Mai itna bura bhi nai hun'. And he meant Sex! That disgusted me to my core. I told him, 'Kuch cheezein inedible hoti hain'.
Why don't humans respect themselves? And from him, I never ever got any vibe of love or anything. I always found him wagging his tail behind money and girls.
And he never belonged to anybody. Sometimes I pitied his loneliness and desperation, yet oftentimes I got disgusted by his over obsession with consumption.
The day he said those words was the limit.
It made me ponder so much about how shallow people are. And at a place like Old Manali, where mountains provide strength and rivers flow free... Why do humans behave in such shallow and lecherous ways?
When he didn't get his ways, he misbehaved with me the next day. So disturbed was I with the entire ordeal that I left that place in quite a hurry and as a result left my earphones right on my room's bed. I called him in an hour. No one else had visited that room. Yet, I never got back my earphones.
It wasn't about earphones, though they were quite important for me over there. But more than that it was the negative effect that entire episode had on my head.

Though being a solo traveler I'm used to such shitty people. Often times owners of guesthouses think it to be their right to flirt or give it a try. Or your own friends turn all lusty taking you to be available. Or even the new friends that you make give it atleast a shot claiming to have feelings and shit!
Why don't people respect friendship? Why is lust more preferred than purity of a connection?

I don't know why am saying all this right now! Now when am not even in Old Manali. Or facing any such people in my life.
Just looking back, after each of my trips, along with all the beautiful memories I carry of a place, I also carry such experiences. And that pains me!
I wonder if they would ever get to experience real love? For their thoughts and actions are lightyears away from any real feelings. Even sex can only be enjoyed when it has feelings. Otherwise it's just an act. And we are not animals to simply fuck around with anybody and everybody. Rather even they have choices and boundaries.
Why are women so objectified and judged?

And not only men do that, even women take advantage of this low vibed stuff.
All these tik tok videos these days with women crossing even the limit of item songs. They are not even aesthetically appealing. Simply body being jiggled to get views. And similarly few women behave even outside.
And although, I am none to judge anyone. Everyone has his own way of looking at life, has his/her own principles of dealing with others... And often my own principles become my shortcomings for this is Kalyuga. And everything is for sale here.
But it still hurts me. And I feel but sad for this society.
And often I wonder, what can I do to change this world? Maybe voicing out my views can be one of the steps! For I have stayed quite for too long and that doesn't sit well with me any more. To bring a change, one must speak out. And here's the first step.

It's not a ranting. Not even a negative post. Just sharing my views. Highlighting a bug in our system. Maybe people judge me, for it's always the girl that is blamed by the society. Yet maybe, someone understands, how much their conduct affects the overall energy of the world. And that making love is a divine act. Body is not just flesh. And things like friendship may mean a lot to someone, provided they are valued and the intentions come correct.

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