Between Haves and Have nots

To buy freedom to do anything
I got to sell my freedom itself.
Discipline, control, time -
are their demands.
In return I'll get money
To buy the things I require
The places I wanna go to
The activities I wanna get into.
Alas! All without time.

No, work is not enough.
Neither meeting deadlines.
Nor my efficiency or skills.
They want to enslave.
My entity - they wanna kill.

I'm supposed to write an essay
Upon why I'm fit for the job.
But, I'm not.

I can't lose myself
In The process.
Can't lie in lieu of excess.

Then I stroll in the expensive mall
Halting at occasional stalls.
Observing a clear divide
Between haves & have nots.
The lights sparkle upon -
Nails being polished,
Perfumes being tried,
Kids building walls of sponge,
Smooth clothes hanging around.
I observe.
Wonder, Is it want or need!
How much of it do I want?

I've been there, done that.
I can be there again.
Drinking in the cool cafes
Buying the ravishing stilettos

I enter a book store.
Window shopping is against
My ethics.
But, books are books.
They offer ideas
Even by the cover page.
I get into a multitude
Of emoticons, ideas, seeds.

I think of a novel -
My novel.
I wonder, will it be a hit?
But that's not how am writing.
It's more to do with
What my heart wants from it.

Will I get old and never really
Live it?
Aah! Life seems so trivial
Like often.
Keep running behind money
Till time outruns you.
All I want is something
Real creative.
Something huge
Not just money.
Not just a 'that's it!'

Wanna buy freedom
With freedom.
Wanna propogate time
With time.
While loving and living
Every moment
That I live.
Breathing nature,
Creating, evolving,
Contributing to the larger good.

And not just sell a product
Or simply make profit.
But to leave an impact
In the society
With beauty, art, creativity.
With no limits, no boundaries
No school like attendence
No stereotypical limitations.

But an amoeba-like
Free society.
Ready to go abstract.
Together, connected,
Supporting each one
Like a unit as a whole.
Like we not I.
The free we.
Limitless, boundless.
Artistic and abstract.