What next?

I live to travel.
Have a fucking brilliant mind.
A v. Strong hearted person.
Every act - art inclined.
With keen interest did
MA in English literature.
Still wanted to explore life.
Left my city
Entered corporate
Marketing, BD
and similar sides.
It opened up in front of me
An all together new world
Technology, deadlines
New knowledge, new ride.
But the travelling continued
Also my romance
With pen and paper.
A rider I became.
A mountain lover too.
Sea connected to the soul.
Spiritual and mystical
Connections too.
On my way somewhere I entered music.
Composing songs and selling them
Became my life time dream.
While writing a novel mid way
I realised
It is painting that was more
Conversing with my inside.
So I decided to become an artist
Full power
Colouring the world around
Earning my expenses
Through art.
But I am fucking 25
With degrees.
So I should work
Officially.
I do have experience
Along with an year's gap.
And I don't know
What is it
That my heart requires.
Not confused
But wandering still.
Beyond social milestones
I sit and think
'What next?'
I don't know.
A creative pursuit
An artistic experiment
A full power
Corporate suit?
If only the work offered
Becomes dynamic.
If only it keeps changing -
The situations, people,
Places, challenges.
I hate to be inside a cubicle
Time bounded.
I am free soul
With principles.
Now I am bound to take a leap
Decide the next course
Show a solid sheet.
How to show my dream?
How to express my belief?
I don't know my next step.
I want to retain
The artist in me.
I want it to stay
This life in me.
It's all full power
In me, inside me.
But this expectation
Of the world around.
To reach I don't know where
The pull back to the ground.
All I have is
Wonder.
With all empathy
I do understand the concern.
Sometimes
I also feel
It's off run.
Somehow life never seemed
Like a race
Ever since
I began to live it.
It's more of a journey
And am more of a traveller.
And hence
I wonder.

~ Mystical Wanderer