Valentine's day

Valentine's day
Crazy know!
Years back
I had a fucking breakup
On this day!
I was a teenager
It was so intense.
Last year
I was partying
Celebrating the day
With a closed one
and many others.
Two three years back
I even had a lover
And it was special
This day.
But it was never perfect.
Maybe the utopia
Is constructed
As a false hope.
I have been happy though
Throughout.
Or I tried to be.
For the ups and downs
I now realise
Were all the same like
How life is
And how it should be.
Today I seek the blue star
And aspire
For a sudden surprise.
A bottle of wine
With a guy alongside.
But your company is superb
Dear cosmos.
Below this moon
And so many stars
I feel complete.
Yet I seek
The blue star.
Even the stuff is missing today
So is the energy of another.
Maybe wine and stuff
would sort it out
For you spoil me already
Like your beloved
Dear cosmos.
I had pizza at night
Something I love from heart
And mom and bhai loved me
At night
With blessings and selfless love
Something that touched my heart.
Romance though is another dimension
I feel
For it can't be fulfilled
With family
Or even stars.
Yet I want to stay single
Yet with an open heart.
Relationships endear
Lot of complications.
I like it free
The connection from heart
This night would have been better
With stuff, wine and someone
With as open a heart.
I feel bit weak
While accepting this part
But yeah! I like to be honest
When it comes to heart.
This day specifically makes me feel
Or this moment
This night
The missing blue star.