Only you moon are not here!

You are not here moon
Yet the night is lighted
Shimmering colors all around
But oh! I miss you.
And the river, mountains
Even sea.
That feeling of 'We'.
I am supposed to feel
Complete.
Or so I feel.
For I have carved
A new life.
There is none from my past
That I want alive.
Or maybe
I do.
I do love you
Every part of the picture
The old we
The new you.
It is this very evening
That on my own self
I was drooling.
How lucky I felt
To be so detached
Of any outsider
Of being home
In my city -
An insider.
But now and then
The prance returns.
The jungle
And this city girl
The strange mentality
The strong stem.
I feel stronger
More good than required
I feel it weird
I being goody goody
All the time.
Also, have turned
Way too honest.
Not that I wasn't
But now I am careless
Of how the other will feel
I just say it
Without any heal.
And people respect it strangely
They want to be criticised
I feel.
For this world seems
Full of praises
But even they have no feel.
But I do appreciate
Only the ones
That require
And they earn it
Yes, every bit of it.
The love has turned real
Like it's not widespread.
But it is v. Deep.
So pure and in heap.
But that devil inside
It still craves for night
The passions of the dark night.
I stay in my senses now
All the time.
But it also means
I don't use my senses much.
Like I be
In existence
And help others bear it
By being a helping hand.
And it does bring
Happiness
To see them smile
Whom I can
Comprehend.
But that selfish me
On road so free
I crave for it
Also despise it
Like my obsession with
Serpentine
Some fears hold me struck
Of losing my present
Like last golden hut.
So I close my fist tight
Dreaming of high tide
The sand inside
Is dear to me
Also
Being free.
And here I see again
The pendulum
Time's troll
Destiny's game.
Turning my back to
All that I desire?
Shadow follows only then
In this illusionary fire.
But dreams
Do come true
And my dreams
Are bigger than you.
No no race out here.
Neither a fixed parameter.
Only you moon
Are different.
And you moon
Are right here.