Wednesday, January 1, 2020

01.01. 2020

01.01. 2020
Hi!
It's a date where I couldn't help but write. Had to for I know I will get back here to this milestone in future.
9 PM. I have a coffee mug in hand and am sitting in my room full with my art. I learned few things today.

1) thoughts are what make a life. For it is our perspective about life that decides if we are happy or not. That is why it is v. Important for the thought processing to happen correctly. If there is fault in the procedure then entire life gets affected by.

2) I have to stop responding with 'I don't know' for then I stop my mind from creating even possible answers. Instead I should still try to gather answer.

3) I have to stop looking for support from others and instead take charge of my life. Not in a reckless way. But in terms of depending only upon my own self may it be for waking up, doing something, anything.

4) STAR (Stop. Think. Analyse. Respond.)
For I react too song and because of temperament, I may kill an otherwise situation. Instead I must focus on a win-win for all.

5) 'Change your perception of love'... Now love has been a very natural feeling for me but I read this line somewhere and that made me think much before it's reception. It is about how I define love. Maybe I should think about it for only then can I know my perception and give it any twist.

Today, I did two new art pieces and again am craving to do more. I just wanna tidy everything up and wanna give it new colors. May this year be with the same energy.

Bought two books today -
1) Ikigai
2)good vibes, good life
Gotta read them soon.

Oh! I have to join a new work tomorrow onwards. 2nd of Jan in 2020. Am real excited. Work after a long time. It gives me an opportunity to learn. I hope I be able to give my best and learn the most. I hope this step is a right decision and I be able to value it being a good host.

Right now am flipping between if I should go to the terrace or just be here ready to do some more art. Maybe I can take a quick round. That way, we will also get a change to contemplate a bit more. Though it will an intense temprature change. But Hey! Let's go.
Woah! I can also see a moon here. Alright! Break time.
So yeah! The moon sparkles too sweetly and I think of so many moons I have seen at so many places. Goa, Pondi, Manali, Kasol, Bangalore, Kolkata, Udaipur (Orrisa)..etc.

Last night was perfect. With my loved ones. And I slept with my mom. Even if I couldn't sleep but I had gratitude for that's what I wished for and I got the best of it.
So yeah! This decade begins with love, taking charge of my life, decision to build my life with a changed attitude, new job, new pieces of art, safe and warm at my my home here in Delhi despite of it being the coldest time in last 118 years.
I do miss Pompom (my pup) and wish him in my heart with my soul all the very best of his life ahead. I also think of Blue and send him warmth for he is out there in snow on mounts. Yet he is living my alternate reality that's wild and free. He is living being my alter ego.
So am back in my room for it was cold and the quick go was enough.

Another thing that I learned today was how to lose my fear. I have to trust more and love more.
Also, this year I gotta work on my judgemental self along with my temperament.

Alright yo! Gotta repair, decorate, enhance beauty and more.
Loads of love to my self to be given to all who care.

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