Thoughtless

I wanted to be
Thoughtless
Totally free of that burden
Of 'what if!'
Of 'why not?'
And I freeze my thoughts
Letting myself flow.
The world frozen
Into one time.
The puff of breath
Flows with no sound.
I go bare
For a fraction of second.
Orgasmic.
Out of the world.
No thoughts.
No swirl.
Hollowed space.
Not even air.
No. Not even a thought
About thought.
Moon fading in clouds.
High and low
In an extra slow motion.
That one sweep
Of beauty.
The dark sky around
No, no sound.
Tears drop from eyes.
So warm, so full
Of love.
I let them flow.
I let it go.
I dance
Upon my own beat.
Sarcastic and lonely.
And then the good feel
Of thoughtlessness.
Of cutting the reel.
No time. No tense.
No words. No desires.
Only one
Of thoughtlessness.
Fie.