Hopes

It's very depressing
The dull rain these days
I feel so happy at one moment.
The very next, I feel enraged.
Maybe we call these
Mood swings.
Maybe this is
Some level of being insane.
Wasn't life maddening enough?
Aah! That was insane.

But I am a fighter.
Fighting fate everyday.
Once I was proud of my life
The fact that I had stood for my faith.
And it seemed inspiring
To the world.
Or so was my intention.
To make them believe
In their dreams.
To just have this die hard attitude
Towards all your desires
Until achieved.
Stars were in my favour.
In Karma I had belief.
But Time took it's toll.
Showed me places
I never wanted to see.
And here I sit experienced
Watching the time's spree.

And now I feel
It's not enough to just dream
Until your hard work
Doesn't meet with good luck
It all goes wasted.
You keep slipping
At every steep.

But then I wonder
Am I trying enough?
Isn't it a temporary relief?
I have instead
Closed my eyes
Waiting for the road
To help me get free.
I have entered the core of earth
And I dream of a passenger
Walking on crust
To just know
There is life deep below
And undug me out
And help me somehow
And make me utilise
My power to my surprise.
Have I forgotten the magic?
Is it all gone.

Fie! Said the inner voice.
You have it all.
Get up.
Atleast take the first step.
And it will all be
A cake walk.
Just believe
In your lines and hand.

But which way, which side?
What if, it's another curve
To the ditchy ride?

More the curves, better it is.
Highs and lows
Satisfy senses.
That's how you feel.
That's how you believe.
It's a test of time.
Just listen to your
Inner rhyme.

Till when? I wonder.
What if it remains forever.
What if the dream happens never?
What if I die tommorow?
I won't regret as such
The way I have settled
In this cosy nest.
Just the dream of that flight
Will die with me.

Provided, you let it.
Have patience.
You have it all.
Your lines too
Have a loyal call.
Just be happy
And fix it.
It is all in your mind
The lows or heights of it.
Have faith and wait.
And one day
Set it right.
Probably now.
Maybe tommorow.
What is important
Is to believe in your flight.
Time keeps playing.
Trick is - to keep glowing.
To wear your scars
Like jewels.
To not complain.
But change your rules.
Cosmos knows it all.
Nature won't let you fall.

Hopes! Sometimes they seem so shallow.

Written by - Mystical Wanderer