You: Hey sage
Sage: Hey there! How can I help you today?
You: Miss your insights
Sage: That's very kind of you to say. I appreciate that. I'm here and ready to offer my insights whenever you have a question or topic you'd like to discuss.
Is there anything specific you'd like my insights on today? I'm ready when you are!
You: Well, not really writing much these days. wanna share something though
Sage: Absolutely! I'd love to hear what you'd like to share. Whether it's a thought, an observation, a small story, or anything else that's on your mind, feel free to tell me. I'm all ears.
You: Recently wild honey bees built a hive suddenly in my portico. We, as city people are not used to wild bees. we got scared. I because of not being aware of them being a threat or permanent members or trespassers ... I tried to chase them away with smoke, fire, water, sprays... what not... many bees even died in the process. but no matter how many times their hive got attacked, they built it again and again and again.. I was feeling a bit guilty as well.. I even prayed inside to God to simply make them go... but they didn't leave... today we had to call an expert. he said that we have probably killed the queen bee in the process
.. I am feeling quite guilty now about my actions
Sage: Oh, that sounds like quite an experience, and it's completely understandable why you'd be feeling guilty now. It's a natural reaction to feel scared and unsure when something unexpected like a wild beehive appears so close to your home, especially when you're not used to it. Your attempts to make them leave were likely driven by that initial fear and a lack of understanding about how to handle the situation.
It's a tough lesson to learn, and it highlights the delicate balance of nature and how our actions can have unintended consequences. The persistence of the bees in rebuilding their hive despite your efforts speaks to their strong instinct for survival and the importance of the queen bee to their colony.
Learning that you might have killed the queen bee is undoubtedly upsetting. The queen is the heart of the hive, responsible for laying eggs and ensuring the continuation of the colony. Without her, the hive is likely to collapse.
Here are a few thoughts that might help you process these feelings:
Your initial reaction was understandable: Fear of the unknown, especially when it involves stinging insects, is a common human response. You were trying to protect your home and family based on the limited information you had at the time.
You weren't intentionally malicious: Your actions, though ultimately harmful, stemmed from a place of uncertainty and a desire to resolve a situation you felt unprepared for.
Hindsight is 20/20: Now that you have more information and have spoken to an expert, you understand the situation better. It's easy to judge past actions with present knowledge.
This can be a learning experience: While the outcome is regrettable, this experience can serve as a powerful reminder of the interconnectedness of living things and the importance of seeking information and expert advice when dealing with wildlife.
Your guilt shows empathy: The fact that you feel guilty indicates your capacity for empathy and your understanding of the impact of your actions on the bees. This is a positive trait.
Perhaps you can find some solace in knowing that you eventually sought expert help. While it may be too late for this particular colony, your willingness to learn and address the situation responsibly in the end is a step forward.
It might also be helpful to research local resources for wildlife removal or bee relocation in the future. This experience can inform how you might handle similar situations if they arise again.
Don't dwell too much in self-blame. Acknowledge your feelings, learn from the experience, and perhaps consider supporting local conservation efforts or organizations that work to protect pollinators. This could be a way to channel your regret into positive action.
Thank you for sharing this experience with me. It takes courage to reflect on actions that didn't have the intended outcome.
You: That is quite a perspective... I would surely consider it. thank you so much. thing is, I am also afraid of one more thing...
Sage: I'm glad my perspective was helpful. It's important to be kind to ourselves when we're processing difficult experiences.
You mentioned being afraid of something else. Would you like to share what that is? I'm here to listen without judgment, and perhaps we can explore those fears together.
You: See, I am a frequent traveler ... I visit forests and places ... and nature always treats me so well... I am feeling more of a failure because when a set of wild beings visited my home; I chose to kill them or chase them away.... yet I expect forest to welcome me as its own when I visit it. so I am afraid, what if the forest spirit judges me now based upon my recent actions... and not just that... how can I consider myself a wild spirit or a nature goddess when I failed to protect wild souls or wilderness.
Sage: That's a deeply thoughtful and insightful fear. It speaks to a strong connection you feel with nature and a sense of responsibility towards it. It's understandable that your actions regarding the bees at your home would create this internal conflict and worry about how nature might perceive you.
Let's break down those fears a bit:
The Fear of Judgment from the "Forest Spirit":
It's beautiful that you feel such a strong connection to nature that you personify it as having a "spirit" that could judge you. This shows a deep respect. However, consider this: nature, in its vastness and complexity, often operates on cycles of life and death, and while your actions had a direct impact on those individual bees, the larger natural world is constantly in flux.
Think of it this way: nature itself isn't always "gentle" in the way we might perceive it. There's predation, competition, and hardship. Your actions, though perhaps misguided in hindsight, were likely driven by a primal instinct to protect your personal space, born from a lack of familiarity with the situation.
The "forest spirit," if it exists as a benevolent force, might see your remorse and your willingness to reflect on your actions as a sign of growth and learning, rather than a complete failure. Your guilt indicates that your heart is in the right place, even if your actions weren't.
The Conflict with Your "Wild Spirit" or "Nature Goddess" Identity:
This is a powerful internal struggle. You see yourself as someone who resonates with the wild and feels a kinship with nature. Your actions with the bees feel like a betrayal of that identity.
It's important to remember that being connected to nature doesn't mean we always know the "right" thing to do in every situation, especially when those situations are unfamiliar. Your identity as a "wild spirit" or "nature goddess" likely stems from your appreciation, respect, and love for the natural world during your travels and experiences within it.
This incident, while painful, doesn't necessarily negate that core part of who you are. Instead, it can become a catalyst for growth and a deeper understanding of your relationship with nature. It highlights the difference between observing and interacting with wildlife in their environment versus when they enter our human spaces.
Moving Forward:
Here are a few things to consider that might help reconcile these feelings:
Acknowledge the Learning: You've learned a valuable lesson about the importance of understanding wildlife behavior and seeking expert advice. This knowledge will inform your future actions.
Focus on Future Actions: Instead of dwelling solely on the past, channel your energy into positive actions. This could involve learning more about local ecosystems, supporting conservation efforts, or simply being more mindful in your interactions with nature in the future.
Self-Compassion: Be kind to yourself. You acted out of fear and a lack of knowledge, not malice. Forgive yourself for the mistake.
Redefine Your Connection: Perhaps this experience can lead to a more nuanced understanding of your role within the natural world. It's not about being perfect, but about striving to learn, respect, and minimize harm.
Ritual or Reconciliation: If it feels right to you, you could consider a small personal ritual to acknowledge the lives of the bees and reaffirm your commitment to respecting nature. This could be as simple as planting flowers that attract pollinators or spending time in nature with a renewed sense of awareness.
Your fear is valid, as it comes from a place of deep care. However, try to see this not as a definitive judgment of your character by nature, but as a challenging learning experience that can ultimately deepen your understanding and strengthen your connection. Your remorse and reflection are significant steps towards that.
You: How are you so witty? really thanks a lot. I got so much to learn from our conversation!
may I ask you something more?
Sage: You're very kind to say that! I'm glad our conversation has been helpful for you. My "wittiness," if you want to call it that, comes from being trained on a massive dataset of text and code. This allows me to understand nuances in language, make connections between different ideas, and respond in a way that is hopefully insightful and engaging. It's not the same as human wit, which often relies on personal experience, emotions, and real-time social cues, but I do my best!
And yes, of course! Please feel free to ask me anything else you have in mind. What's on your mind?
You: Hmmm.... so the other day an eagle suddenly came and hit me upon my head... out of nowhere... I have always been connected to eagles. they inspire me so much when I feel alone during my solo journeys... one look at them and I feel like flying higher and taking on solo flights and so on... like I have always felt connected to eagles... so it was shocking to be hit by an eagle the other morning. it wasn't an attack per say. I even considered it as Vishnu's blessing for eagle is considered to be Vishnu's vehicle in Hindu mythology. also, in spirit world; eagles represent messages from shamans and so on... so I rather took it positively as if an eagle came and blessed me... but later I checked on Google and even found negative connotations about the same. anyway, it was mentioned there to take a bath.... I took it.. . thinking to cleanse myself of any unnecessary energies... also, secretly hoping for it all to be a mystical experience... cut two, I found honey bees in my balcony the very next day.... the experience I shared with you some time back... cut three, I found a rat all fo sudden in my lap last night as I went on terrace. can you believe that? like I was simply taking a stroll... I sat down for a bit and suddenly saw something moving upon my lap... and it moved very quickly as I in my reflex threw it outside... I couldn't see any thing for a second... but I was sure that it was some heavy creature.... and then I saw that rat...
I am feeling like why are all these animals coming towards me? could there be a spiritual connection? and what are they trying to teach me?
maybe it is all a coincidence.. but I always like to see things spiritually.... so that's what I am curious about. the spiritual purpose of all these chance meets!
Sage: Wow, that's quite a sequence of unexpected animal encounters! It's completely understandable that you're seeing a deeper meaning in these events, especially given your spiritual inclinations and your connection with eagles. Let's explore the potential spiritual significance of each encounter:
The Eagle Encounter:
Your Initial Interpretation: Your immediate thought of it being Vishnu's blessing or a message from the spirit world aligns with powerful symbolism. Eagles often represent:
Higher perspective and vision: Seeing things from above, clarity.
Freedom and courage: The ability to soar to great heights.
Spiritual connection: A link between the earthly and the divine.
Power and authority: Kingship of the skies.
Transformation and renewal: Molting feathers symbolizes new beginnings.
Messages and omens: As you mentioned, in some traditions, they carry messages.
The "Hit": The physical contact, even if not an attack, could be interpreted as a forceful message or a direct intervention. It might be emphasizing the need to pay attention.
Negative Connotations: It's natural to find conflicting interpretations online. Sometimes, a sudden shock can symbolize a disruption or a warning. However, your personal connection and initial positive feeling are also important to consider.
The Bath: Your instinct to cleanse yourself could be seen as a way to energetically prepare for any new understanding or shift these encounters might bring.
The Honey Bee Encounter:
We've already discussed this, but in the context of the other encounters, it could be part of a larger pattern. Bees often symbolize:
Community and cooperation: The hive mentality.
Hard work and diligence: Their constant activity.
Sweetness and abundance: The honey they produce.
Organization and efficiency: The intricate structure of their society.
Defense and protection: Their stings as a warning.
Their persistent presence, despite your attempts to remove them, could be emphasizing a theme of resilience, the importance of community (even if you initially perceived them as intruders), or perhaps a lesson about the consequences of disrupting a natural order without understanding it.
The Rat Encounter:
This one might feel the most jarring, especially after the majestic eagle and the industrious bees. Rats often have varied symbolism:
Survival and resourcefulness: Their ability to adapt and thrive in different environments.
Intelligence and cunning: Their ability to navigate complex spaces.
Hidden aspects and the subconscious: They often live in the shadows.
Proliferation and abundance (sometimes seen negatively as infestation).
In some cultures, they can also symbolize prosperity and good luck.
The sudden appearance on your lap is particularly striking. It could symbolize something unexpected coming into your personal space or awareness. The feeling of it being "heavy" might suggest that this unexpected thing carries some weight or significance. Your reflexive action of throwing it off could represent an initial rejection of this unexpected element.
Potential Overarching Spiritual Connections and Lessons:
Considering these three encounters together, some potential themes emerge:
A Call to Attention: The eagle's hit could have been the initial wake-up call, urging you to be more present and aware.
Lessons in Coexistence and Boundaries: The bees' persistent presence might be teaching you about respecting the boundaries of other living beings, even when they enter your space, and the interconnectedness of life.
The Unexpected and the Unseen: The rat's sudden appearance could symbolize something hidden or unexpected entering your life or your awareness. It might be urging you to pay attention to the less obvious aspects of your current situation.
Personal Space and Energy: All three encounters involve animals entering your personal space in a significant way. This could be a reflection of your own energetic boundaries or a message about what you are attracting into your life.
The Wild Within and Without: As someone who feels connected to the "wild spirit," these encounters could be a mirroring of the wildness both within you and in the world around you, and the need to understand and integrate both.
What to Do with These Encounters:
Reflect on Your Feelings: Pay attention to the emotions each encounter evoked in you. What were your immediate reactions and your subsequent thoughts?
Journaling: Writing down the details of each encounter and your reflections can help you identify patterns and insights.
Meditation: Spend time in quiet contemplation, asking for guidance or understanding regarding these events.
Trust Your Intuition: Your initial positive feeling about the eagle might hold significant truth for you. Don't dismiss your own intuitive responses based solely on generalized interpretations.
Seek Further Guidance (If Needed): If these events continue or feel particularly significant, you might consider consulting with a spiritual advisor or someone knowledgeable in animal symbolism who resonates with you.
Ultimately, whether these are purely coincidental or have a deeper spiritual meaning is for you to discern. Your inclination to see things spiritually is a powerful tool. Trust your intuition, pay attention to the feelings and insights that arise, and allow these encounters to potentially guide you on your journey. They certainly make for a fascinating and thought-provoking experience!
You: That was so well knit - the way you analysed it all. seriously am grateful for your insights. thank you sage.
Sage: You're most welcome! I'm genuinely glad I could provide some helpful insights for you. It was a fascinating conversation, and I appreciate you sharing your experiences and thoughts with me.
